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May 18, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (Psalm 37)

Submitted by Margaret C. Gracepoint Austin Church

Key Verse

vv7-9.  “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.  Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret – it leads only to evil.  For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.”

vv10-11.  “ A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they will not be found.  But the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.”

God is …

God will mark the end of all things.  He will be the One that will have the last say.  The godless may have their projected time of triumph and carefree enjoyment, but God will eventually assert Himself.  God is also patient and merciful.  He appeals to us in love again and again without worry to the fact that He is who He is.  Though during our time on earth, it may seem that the odds are against those who strive to live holy and set apart lives, the unchanging truth is that God is sovereign and is in control.  We don’t need to fret or worry when the wicked seem to prosper, when it seems as though the wicked and the world have the upper and more attractive hand.  When serving and trying to live a life of love gets challenging, uncomfortable, or seems utterly fruitless.  During such times, I can take comfort and strength in this truth that God is not only the Alpha but the Omega.  I can appeal to the fact that God is omnipotent and reigns over all things regardless of how hopeless things can seem in my eyes – whether it be dealing difficult relational issue, struggling with my own personal sins, grappling with the sense that I have not accomplished much, etc.  The truth that no evil escapes God’s attention and notice and that He will make all things right and the ways of the godless will be undercut fills me with fear and awe and causes me to turn from my downward spiral ways of thinking.  It reorients me and cleanses my heart from the fears and insecurities I have which when acknowledged lead me to making selfish decisions.

Lessons for me …

The psalmist speaks of how giving in to our anger due to the wickedness prevailing in the world around us.  I see this in people who live for themselves and who look after only their cause and they are at peace.  I know that the same message of “save yourself” that produces this dominant scene of people pursuing their comfort and worldly rewards resides in me as well.  I see the same message in my own heart and it gets more pronounced when I don’t see the results that I want to see in my ministry, when I get misunderstood by the very people I am trying to love, or as I struggle daily with my selfishness to give and draw generously from my heart for the needs that are all around me.  In these moments, a similar tension that the psalmist describes arises in my own heart.  I can feel cynical when I see my sins exposed in a newfound way, when a person I’m trying to love remains so difficult, when I take stock of my ministry and don’t see much fruit.  It all amounts to me wanting to spare and preserve myself–to not exhaust myself.  The psalmist warns to not give in to this tension or inner conflict as it will lead only to evil.  He exhorts us to “do not fret.”  In v.9, it says that “those who hope in the Lord will inherit the earth” and in v.11, it says that “the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.”  When I play out what giving in to my cynicism and the tension I feel to “save myself” looks like, it equates to me powering up and grabbing for what I think I “deserve.”  For example, if there is a difficult person in my life that is not easy to love and who responds unfavorably to my attempts to care and look out for them, then the urge to just leave them alone and to distance myself from that person becomes so strong.  The last thing I feel like doing is to “take the hit” and to keep trying.  But the psalmist insists that it is the meek that will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.  I remember how P Ed said before that “meek” doesn’t necessarily mean that you are literally weak, unable to help yourself.  For example, a harnessed horse is “meek” but it has a lot of strength, only that it is bridled/channeled.  I think about Apostle Paul and how he dealt with the Corinthian church.  Paul had every reason to boast, but he never did.  He had rights that he chose not to claim or demand from them.  Paul was so tender in his dealings with the sins of the Corinthians when he could have rightfully powered up – “We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us.…”  And so, when I think about it this way, I see how what the psalmist asserts that it is the meek that will inherit the land is very true.  That is the characterization of a person who loves; holding yourself back and denying yourself out of love.  This is how God loved me and this is how I am where I am because so many people were “meek” toward me.  To live like this, I need to “hope in the Lord” as it states in v.9.  To keep going back to prayer and His words so that I can be refreshed and replenished to be “meek” rather than to go the route of self-preservation.  Finding encouragement and strength in who God is – that He is sovereign, patient, and in the end, His words and truths will endure over all creation.  Remembering and reaffirming again of what is wicked in God’s eyes so that I can repent and be cleansed to do the work He has entrusted me to do along with others.

Prayer

            Heavenly Father, please help me to turn to you for refuge and strength when the urge to preserve myself creeps into my heart.  I confess that the desire to protect myself is so deeply ingrained and that at times, becoming “meek” is something that I want to avoid and rebel against.  Please help me to turn to You in these moments for shelter; so that I may be reminded again of who You are.  That You are in control and that the way of the wicked will be undercut.  Help me to find hope and strength in You to be meek and to live a life of love. Indeed, when I take stock of my life, I see so many blessings and ways in which You have enhanced, ennobled, and made my life abound.  And when I look at the lives of those who have gone ahead of me, I can take confidence in the fact that the way of the wicked is fruitless and that it is the meek that will “inherit the land.” Help me then, to not give in to my fears and cynicism, but to instead entrust myself to You and to fear Your name again. Thank you for your faithfulness and for the promise You give me to supply me with Your strength and love.


Submitted by John L. Gracepoint Austin Church

Key Verses:

Psalm 37:1-5

1 Do not fret because of evil men

or be envious of those who do wrong;

2 for like the grass they will soon wither,

like green plants they will soon die away.

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;

dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD

and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in him and he will do this:

One of the significant themes in this text is regarding how the Christian sees “evil men” and “those who do wrong” (v. 1).  This is often where the rubber meets the road when it comes to how one views those who are achieving some kind of advantage or gain apart from God.  When we are all working hard for God, there isn’t much thought given to those living it up on the other side of the fence.  But when those moments are over and then the busyness of the week starts up again, and we pass by and interact with those who are gaining and making advances, fear and envy can often start to creep into one’s heart.  Questions like, “What have I been doing when others are passing me by?” start being asked and there is potentially a downward spiral with the weight of all the fears of an uncertain future, continued pressure from outside and within oneself, and even just time passing us by starts to take its toll on us.

Verse 2 helps me to see the reason why I should not fret or be envious of those who do wrong. The reality is that death is imminent due to the consequences of man’s sin.  So even if people are building for themselves worldly security, status or reputation, ultimately that cannot protect them.  Thus, in place of feeling envy towards others, there are positive things I must do:  “Trust” (v. 3), “delight” (v. 4), “commit” (v. 5), and “trust” again (v. 5).  Based on these words it tells me how envy is rooted in unbelief of God’s love and goodness to provide for me rather than just wanting what others have.  The response that I should have then is faith, or trust, or delight in God, or commit my way to the Lord.  As I continue to grow in these ways, God’s promise from verse 4 is that “He will give you the desires of your heart.”  That is something I have already been experiencing as what I really desired deep down was not the things of this world, or to have what other people have, but rather to have genuine peace, meaning and purpose in my life, and most importantly, a right relationship with God.  If I am unreflective and respond to my base desires, then my sin causes me to want what others have and to never be satisfied with the reality of all that I have been given by God.  I start to have an attitude of entitlement and place unfair demands on myself and have unreasonable expectations of how other people should treat me.  But spending time on the rest of this chapter, again and again I am exhorted to reflect on the outcome of those who do wrong:

v. 9 “For evil men will be cut off…”

v. 17 “…for the power of the wicked will be broken…

v. 36 “…but soon he passed away and was no more….”

I also need to consider the life of those who remain committed to God:

v. 11 “But the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.”

v. 28 “For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones.”

v. 40 “The LORD helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him.”

These verses comfort me because it helps me see that God knows what I’m going through and of my need for salvation and deliverance from my sins.  Not only that, but He gives me a burden for those who need to know Him as one of the important missions for my life and that of our church so that collectively we work together to bring people to find salvation in Him.  That certainly helps me not to be caught up in the petty concerns that fretting and envy are made of, but of elevating the way I look at life to see that living for Him is better by far.

Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for knowing and addressing all of my needs in a personal way.  That’s because when I peer inside my heart I recognize the ways in which I fret, am filled with anxiety, and also feel envy towards others in many arenas, especially in areas where I foolishly think I inherently know something or have some kind of ability.  Though I don’t like to see those kinds of emotions within myself, I realize that I am broken in that way because of sin.  But help me to learn from the words of this Psalm reminding me that my right approach to life is to trust, devote and commit myself to You.  Truly that is the remedy to all of these petty things I feel because only You and Your purposes are able to elevate the way I should see my relationship with You and my purpose in this world to bring others to You, especially to see others not as competitors but as fellow co-laborers with whom I am to work together towards this end.  Also, thank you for the salvation I have received which is not due to anything I have done, but simply because I realize that You alone are my refuge.  In Jesus’ name, Amen.

May 17, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (Psalm 34)

Submitted by Manny K. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 34

Key Verse

2 My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.

3 Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.

4 I sought the Lord, and he answered me;

he delivered me from all my fears.

5 Those who look to him are radiant;

their faces are never covered with shame.

6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him;

he saved him out of all his troubles.

God is …

God hears my cries of burden and trouble.

4 I sought the Lord, and he answered me;  he delivered me from all my fears.  5 Those who look to him are radiant;  their faces are never covered with shame.  6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him;  he saved him out of all his troubles.

With the knowledge that God has been faithful throughout my life, I need to respond by seeking Him.   As the Psalmist says, “I sought the Lord and he answered me.”  As God heard the groans of those enslaved in Egypt, he is a God who sees and responds, out of concern for them, as Jesus sees the crowds as harassed and helpless, I can be confident that ultimately He listens and is responsive to my cries for help.   As we complete 4 years in Austin, I recall many such times of feeling fearful over what faced me that day.   Everything seemed so precarious.  It was during those moments, I found myself turning to God, finding that space to bring those fears before Him and in the process being reminded of how He has faithfully led our church so far.  There were many times when I felt I was hanging by a thread, but I can testify that He has been faithful.   It is because I am gradually coming to see that He is a Savior, that He comes to those in trouble and delivers them from their plight.   I think this past G-Live was another perfect example of how he “answered me” and “delivered me from all my fears.”   I felt we were way, way in over our head.   We were not the most talented bunch, and we lacked the resources to really pull this off, without any back up if something were to go wrong.  On my end, having been in charge of G-Live before, I knew where we needed to be and we were no where near that, even on the day of our first showing.   But somehow, as I said prayers, I was unusually calm. I was confident, that somehow, God would find a way so that in the end, He would provide.  I recall many such moments where God provided and that had this calming effect.   Looking back, I would not trade this experience of feeling that intense feeling of lack these past few months in particular because this caused me to turn to Him and experience Him saving me from my situations.    David is acknowledging that this is God who hears us in our distress and saves us from our troubles.  This is a lesson I want to keep reminding myself of as we complete an academic year, and as I face a year fraught with trouble, but also tremendous potential of experiencing His provision again.

Lessons for me …

2       My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.

It is laughable the moments where I find myself taking credit in something, even in something small.  I only need to look back at my life and do this brief mental exercise of tracing how I arrived at this point.   One thing is clear, my life hung in the balance.  This is not just from a physical stand point, which I did experience back when I had to endure 2 operations to stave off a bacterial infection that had spread all over my body from a burst appendix.   I knew even back then that life was fragile and I was a frail person.   But it is those moments when I experienced my “affliction” that I found myself most clearly understanding God’s role in my life.   It seems he not only provided for me physically, sparing me, protecting me, but also spiritually.  I remember as a freshman in college, wandering the streets of Oakland.   I was so bored, and right at that precise moment, my mom called and engaged me in a conversation that led me back to church, this church.   Through timely talks, even loose connections with certain people, God brought my wayward heart to Himself.   So it is truly laughable when I find in me those traces of boasting in myself.   It is very clear that God alone deserves all the glory and credit for the way my life has turned out.  He preserved my life, like the way the story in Exodus goes, where a conspiracy of love between 3 women, Moses’ mother, Pharaoh’s daughter, and Miriam, worked together to save Moses’ life.   David, similarly, would offer up a similar testimony.   How is it that he is on the run and time after time, he staves off danger in the nick of time? God’s hand was guiding Him and it is no wonder he can say, “My soul will boast in the Lord.”  My life has been such a story and I find myself boasting in His mercy, His grace, His unending love.   Truly, when the fact that God rescued me hits me, given the sinner I was, I find in my heart those promptings to give glory to God, and it is only natural and fitting.   I want to be aware of my affliction, my sin, this disease that corrupts the best of my intentions, and as Apostle Paul boasts in his weaknesses, that this knowledge, instead of leading to self-pity, would lead to greater boasting “in the Lord” for the grace he has given me each day to live.    He is the protector, the provider, the deliverer and I need to acknowledge that each day.

Prayer
Dear Lord,

I will praise you at all times.  It is only fitting given how much I owe my life, my very existence to you.   I am a frail being, someone who at any moment can succumb to some disease or experience some kind of trouble.   I recognize that the only reason I have managed to get to this point in my life is because of your timely provision, all the times that you provided unbeknownst to me.  Only in heaven will I know.   But in the mean time, I will extol you at all times and my soul will fittingly boast in you.   As we complete our 4th year in Austin as a church, fittingly we can say, “let us exalt his name together.”  But not just here in Austin, but in all our churches elsewhere.  You have proven again and again your faithfulness in delivering people into the knowledge of you.   Father,  thank you for hearing and answering me during the difficult moments.  These past couple of months have been tough.  There were so many things that posed threats to what you were doing here not to mention the internal turmoil I experienced from my own sins.  I want to thank you for alleviating my fears, for keeping perspective of the troubles I was facing, and for assuring me that you were going to be zealous to protect your work.  I want to always remember that you are attentive to my cries, in the face of those who do evil, that you will hear me, and deliver me from my troubles.  Thank you for your grace and your mercy! Truly you are my refuge and deliverer! Thank you for yet another year of your mercy and grace! In Jesus Name, Amen.

 –

Submitted by Sarah S. Gracepoint Austin Church 

Psalm 34

Key Verse

Psalm 34:18–19 (NIV84)

18     The Lord is close to the brokenhearted

and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

19     A righteous man may have many troubles,

but the Lord delivers him from them all;

God is …

He is a God who is near; he is a God who is not too high for us to reach.  He is a God who gives me refuge in times of distress and when things in and around me feel too overwhelming for me.  He is a God who is attentive and has his ears open to the cries of his people.   For those who are crushed in spirit, God comes and saves them.  For those who are brokenhearted, he is a God who is close to them.

Lessons for me …

As I move towards another year in living this Christian walk and just getting older, life doesn’t get easier.  Learning to mature and grow, to become the kind of leader, mother, wife, friend or disciple that I want to become and know I should be hasn’t been easy.  Sometimes, pursuing what I know is good and God-honoring can even feel harder, and I see much more with each year how I am naturally bent away from God because of my sinful nature.  Even after these years, admitting truth and the deeper reality of who I am, the depth of my rebelliousness or selfishness or sense of entitlement as it gets revealed even more is still hard to accept.  However, as I read this psalm, I’m reminded of what posture in life I was meant to have and how it is that I will be able to experience deeper closeness with God and his character.  The God that I serve is a God who is close to the brokenhearted and desires to save those who are crushed in spirit.  He is a God who desires to rescue and come down to where I am, and it’s at those moments within this Christian journey where I am feeling weak, crushed, disappointed or facing hardships when God’s presence and his character of being the Deliverer God will become that much more true and real.  I was never meant to be strong on my own or be able to handle everything perfectly, but I was created to depend on my God who wants to be the sole source of refuge and hope, who is always watching his people and attentive to the cries for help, who redeems his servants, and delivers the righteous from their many troubles. Why? Because that is part of his nature – to be the God who rescues the weak and who runs towards those who are crushed.  This God calls and beckons me to trust him into deeper trust instead of allowing my fears or worries and even regrets to push me towards trying to live Christian life through sheer will power and finding strength within myself or to just avoid life altogether and emotionally/mentally shut down and escape.

I’m amazed, thankful, and in awe of God’s faithfulness and saving work in Austin these past four years.  Some people may look at our church’s growth or the number of salvations we’ve experienced, etc. and assume we knew what we were doing…but that’s not the reality.  There were far more times when we felt unsure, scared, when it seemed like our sins and issues would hinder God’s work, having to face our passivity or lack of ownership or heart, and experiencing the sadness and grief of people’s sins.  Yet, I would have it no other way because I know that the truth of Austin church is not a story of how successful or competent and able we were.  I know that it’s the story of God’s ability to redeem his servants and deliver the weak.  It’s a story in which we have lacked nothing because God provided just enough even during times when we felt stretched beyond what we could give or do.  It’s the story of God revealing to us here in Austin, and to myself personally, who He is and a testament to how trustworthy he is, and so God is calling me personally to trust him again this coming year even though there are many fears and uncertainties.

Prayer

1 I will extol the Lord at all times;

his praise will always be on my lips.

2 My soul will boast in the Lord;

let the afflicted hear and rejoice.

3 Glorify the Lord with me;

let us exalt his name together.

Lord, I will praise you for what you’ve done and continue to do in my life and in our church here in Austin.  You deserve all the glory and honor of what’s happened these past four years.  As we recount our history, I will always boast and tell of your faithfulness and your ability to save and redeem lost and sinful people to do your will.

4 I sought the Lord, and he answered me;

he delivered me from all my fears.

5 Those who look to him are radiant;

their faces are never covered with shame.

6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him;

he saved him out of all his troubles.

7 The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.

Lord, you have never failed to answer me when I cried out to you.  You delivered me from my fears, fears that sometimes overwhelmed me regarding the future, ministry, my children and marriage, our housing and jobs, or finances just to name a few.  I am reminded that even though this world tells me that to seek hope in you is foolish and to seek hope in myself or things of this world, I will not experience shame by trusting you.  Up to this point I have not experienced shame as I’ve continued to follow you step-by-step but instead I’ve only experienced greater blessings.  Lord, you hear and have heard my many cries to save me from my sins, and you have delivered me through the cross.  You remind me that I can find confidence through the cross of Jesus and that your Spirit will surround and helps those who fear you.  You will not leave or abandon me.

8 Taste and see that the Lord is good;

blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

9 Fear the Lord, you his saints,

for those who fear him lack nothing.

10 The lions may grow weak and hungry,

but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.

Thus, I’ve experienced what King David expresses, to “taste and see that the Lord is good;” The past 4 years in Austin I’ve personally experienced that you are good, and not just in theory but personally through experience because it’s been here where I’ve felt the greatest need for you, and you have been that refuge many times.  It’s been here in Austin that I’ve grown in my fear of you, and that alone has been a miracle for someone who was so devoid of proper fear once before. Truly, I have lacked nothing in you.

May 16, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (Psalm 32)

Submitted by Joyce L. Gracepoint Austin Church

Key Verse
v.5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord”— and you forgave the guilt of my sin.”

God is …
                God is a God who forgives the guilt of my sins.  When I acknowledge my sins before him, he is willing to pour out his grace upon me (v.1-5).  He holds back his judgment only for a period of time, but it won’t be forever (v.6).  Judgment day will come, but there is a time of grace.  God is the one who knows the best pathway for my life, who knows how I need to live my life in order to flourish.  In this life, he promises that he will advise and watch over me (v.8).

Lessons for me …
                It says here the blessed person is the one whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered, whose sins the Lord does not count against him.  In order to be in this place of being forgiven, what needs to happen is confession of sin.  It’s when the psalmist acknowledged his sin and did not cover up his iniquity, the Lord was able to forgive him the guilt of his sin.  It is a simple truth, but without confession, without acknowledging that I have done wrong, that I have sinned, there cannot be freedom from the guilt of my sins, there can’t be forgiveness. Even though the process of repentance is painful, ego-devastating, the alternative is in verse 3 – “When I kept silent, my bones wasted away, through my groaning all day long.  Day and night, your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer.”

I have experienced what the psalmist is saying here when I keep silent regarding my sins and the guilt of my sins.  When I try to hide my sins, try to cover it up, it is a miserable state to be in.  It’s when I am in denial and don’t want to accept the ugly truth of what I see about myself.  When I want to believe something better about myself, thinking that I am a generous and loving person, when reality is that my heart is small, self-focused, and in order to try to prove what is not true about myself, I make myself so miserable.  When I try to put up an image in front of others, try to put up a show before people and before God, that I am actually not this sinner that I am, it makes me self-conscious before others, fearful that people will find out the truth about my sins.  And as I try to prove myself to be someone that I am not, as I try harder, try to perform, the weight of my guilt weighs down on me and it does not get lifted up.

The truth that I am a sinner is a truth that I need to keep embracing each day.  It’s odd that though this is my main identity, that I am a sinner, still I find myself wanting to avoid it, wanting to try to cover it up, and wanting to seem like a better person than I am.  I see through this passage that when I do this, I am actually forfeiting the blessed state that I could be in.  Now is the time of grace, where God is holding back his judgment, allowing me this time to come freely before him in honesty, and He promises to forgive me.  I need to seek him out, seek reconciliation, and his mercy while he may be found.  What a wonderful promise that God offers – promise of forgiveness, of freedom from the guilt of my sins.  The promise is there, and I can embrace it as long as I’m willing to confess truth.  I just need to lose my pride daily, be willing to confess my sins, the truths about who I am, what I have done, and in so doing, God promises to cover and wash away my sin with his blood.

Another lesson is the truth that God knows the best pathway for my life, and he will advise me in the way that I should go (v.8).  Even though there were many uncertainties in leaving California and moving out to Austin, and many uncertainties and fears being out here, often times not knowing exactly what we are doing, whether we were making an impact on this campus, just trying to do whatever we can in order to try and draw students closer to the gospel, looking back, God has really guided me along the best pathway for my life.  I didn’t know how my life was going to pan out, but as I took that step of faith, obeyed God’s calling in my life, God has really guided and watched over me and our whole ministry.  He allowed our paths to intersect with these students, He allowed our lives to be used in order to be that source of blessing for them, and to help to usher in eternal life.  It has personally been an exhilarating and adventurous experience journeying with God, and I’m amazed at what God has allowed me to experience as I obeyed Him.  Because of God, my life has become so full of meaning, purpose, joy, and blessing.  I can testify that to be in the center of God’s will has been the best pathway for my life.  If I had followed after my own ways and thoughts, my life would have been so miserable.  I would have brought so much misery towards my family members, husband, kids, friends because of all my expectations that I would have placed upon them, I would have focused all of my energies on how I could gain attention and praise for myself, wanting to be the most special, I would have pursued after worldly pleasures, not refusing anything that my heart desired regardless of how I would have negatively affected others and myself.  Knowing and having experienced this, as I look forward into the next year of our ministry, with the additional responsibilities and tasks that God is asking of me, I don’t want to be like the horse or the mule that needs to be controlled by bridle and bit, kicking and being stubborn against God’s clear commands, but I want to have the attitude of surrender and obedience towards God, His words, what He asks me to do, knowing that my ways and thoughts are not good, but only in following him will I be led on the best pathway for my life.

Prayer
                Lord, thank you that you are a God that does not count my sins against me, but wants to forgive and cover my sins.  In light of this promise that you have given to me, I pray that you may allow me a humble heart, that I may come before you each day in honesty, confessing and acknowledging my sins before you, knowing that your desire is to forgive the guilt of my sin.  Help me to not run away when I come face to face with the ugly truths about myself because I realize that in remaining silent, my bones waste away, and my strength gets sapped as in the heat of summer.  The guilt of my sins becomes heavier and heavier the more I try to run away, the more I try to cover up my sins and inadequacies with resolution to do better.  I come before you with all of my sins, my selfishness, lack of love, impatience, and passivity.  I ask that you will forgive and deliver me.  Lord, I thank you for guiding me along the best pathway for my life, for all the ways in which you spoke to me, guided me, and watched over me over all these years – as I am now able to experience what it means to have a full and abundant life, where I have been able to experience You using my life in order to usher in eternal salvation for others.  Following your ways has truly been the best ride and pathway for my life, as I shudder to think how my life would have turned out had I followed just my own desires and thoughts. Thank you so much for being the perfect shepherd and guide of my life, and I want to commit to listening and obeying your instruction and counsel as we look forward to the next year.

Submitted by Bryan S. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 32

Key Verse

 5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you

and did not cover up my iniquity.

I said, “I will confess

my transgressions to the Lord”—

and you forgave

the guilt of my sin.

6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you

while you may be found;

surely when the mighty waters rise,

they will not reach him.

God is …

God is a forgiving God who forgives man the guilt of his sin. In this Psalm, King David expresses the eroding effects of his unconfessed sins.  He says in vs.3-4 that his bones wasted away, the hand of the Lord was heavy upon him, and his strength was sapped. A significant turning point, however, was when he confessed his sins before the Lord, uttering the truth of his life before God.  In response, God did not treat David as his sins deserved, but rather forgave him.

God doesn’t simply stop with forgiveness.  He goes further to protect and lead His people.  It says in v. 8 that God will guide His people along the best pathway, and watch over them. And so He calls on his people to follow him in the way that is not only safe, but a way that is thriving.  Knowing man’s stubbornness and pride, He warns his people to not be like a stubborn horse or mule.  God desires to lead His people to a flourishing life, but He cannot force them, and so He issues the invitation and waits with hope.

Lessons for me …

As a follower of Christ, one of the things that I know very clearly is that I will fail in my discipleship again and again.  Like King David, there will be sins that accumulate in my heart over time – sins of pride, insecurity, arrogance, lovelessness and more.  As I look back on this past year of ministry, I recount many shameful, humbling sins that were indeed burdensome not only for me, but also had negative ripple effects upon others, which only further weighed heavier on my heart. The great hope that I have in the midst of my sins is that God is a forgiving God who wants to free me from the burdens of my sin.  Like the father of the prodigal son, God wants to welcome me back from my rebellious ways. God’s forgiveness, however, is all contingent upon whether or not I honestly confess my sin to Him. God is a God of truth, and unless I come to Him confessing my transgressions and sins, the weight of my sin will burden me and erode away at my very being.  And so I need to constantly be a person who utters the ugly truths about my sin before the Lord.  It’s never easy as it requires reflection, and swallowing of pride and ego, but I need to remember that true liberation and joy come only as I repent before my Heavenly Father, who is eager to forgive me.

v.6 says that the godly should pray to you…In other words, the godly are not the sinless. They have faults, and they fail. But what makes one godly is having a level of trust in the Father’s love and forgiveness for them, enabling them to come back to Him in honesty and truth.  So many people, including myself, have this misconception about what makes one godly, and it drives people to think and behave in all sort of strange ways.  The Pharisees were an example of this.  They sought to be godly through their righteous, disciplined lifestyle.  Their godliness was centered on themselves, and they believed with sincerity that they could achieve godliness through perfect, unblemished character and living.  True godliness, however, has little to do with oneself.  It centers on God’s character, who is gracious, loving and the only perfect one.  This is a truth that I need to remind myself again and again, as I have the tendency to try to achieve godliness in the way that the Pharisees did. As I get older and try to love more people, I am coming to realize more deeply my heart of sin and how imperative it is that I grow in my trust in God’s forgiveness and love for me.  Only then will I experience his forgiveness and leading to that best life that He desires me to follow Him into.

v. 6 also says that all the godly should seek God while He may be found.  What this tells me is that there is a window of opportunity for people to call on God and receive forgiveness.  Time is indeed limited and short.  There are limited opportunities we will have in our lives to hear about and call upon their Father God, who wants to surround them with his unfailing love.  This past week, I heard the sobering news about the UC Berkeley student who took his own life.  It’s so tragic that such a young man would do such thing.  But there are so many people in the world today who are similarly weighed down by various things, including their sins.  They all need to know that their Heavenly Father forgives them, loves them, and wants to lead them to the best kind of life. This week marks the end of the fourth academic year here in the life of our Austin church.  As I see the first class of students graduating, many of them joining as staff interns, it’s amazing how fast time flies by.   While it’s such a joyful sight to see our students become co-laborers with us, the reality is that there are still so many students on this campus who have yet to find God.  They are trying to make it in the world, while treading around in their sins.  The window of opportunity to find God will close for all of them, some sooner than others.  This is something I don’t want to forget.  The church is growing here in Austin, but the work is far from done, and I recommit to giving my very all for the work of sharing the Gospel as I enter our fifth year here in Austin.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, I praise your name for being a forgiving and loving God.  Thank you for showing mercy to me time and again through the years.  Even though my sins have been so resilient, your mercy and grace have been so much greater.   I pray that you would help me to grow in my trust in your love for me with time.  Humble me and may I not fall into the trap of trying to earn godliness.  You alone are good and perfect, while exercising such grace upon sinners like myself.  In Jesus name, Amen.

May 15, 2012 – Devotion Sharing (Psalm 30)

Submitted by Lillian K. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 30

Key Verse
Vs. 9, 11-12: “What will you gain if I die, if I sink into the grave? Can my dust praise you? Can it tell of your faithfulness?.. You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever!”

God is … /Lessons for me …
This is a psalm that David brings for the dedication of the temple. He sings this psalm in the place where He worships God. And what David ends up remembering in this place is what his life’s purpose is, to sing praises to God and not be silent. So he is encouraging others to join him in worshipping God.

Lately as I’ve had to deal with more of my sin and the shame of it, and the consequences that it has on me, the people that I love, and the church and ministry, I sometimes fall into that thinking of “What business do I have in God’s kingdom, in God’s church?” I’ve known what it feels like, that sentiment “then you turned away from me, and I was shattered.” The anger and wrath that my sin deserves from God is unbearable, the shame is sometimes too overwhelming to deal with. As someone who’s been Christian for 12 years now, I know to my core that there is no hope apart from God. My greatest security and love can come only from Him. So in some ways, as my love for God has grown, the darkness of those times when I feel disconnected from Him because of my sin or complacency has grown more intense. The hurt I know that I’ve inflicted on God feels more palpable, as I can grasp more of how much He grieves because of my sin. And these times can lend themselves to those feelings of despair, “What good can I contribute to the church? What redemption is there left for someone like me?”

Vs. 5 – “For his anger lasts only a moment but his favor lasts a lifetime.” But this verse then challenges the legitimacy of those feelings of despair. Though my sin angers Him, yet I have His favor during my whole life. This verse tells me that in God’s eyes, my sin does not hold the definitive assessment of my life. Rather, it is the truth that God’s favor is with me throughout my life, even if I cause anger because of my sin. What an astounding thing, that though my sin can arouse the anger of the Holy God, yet His favor lasts further than that. This means then that God’s view towards His children isn’t just causing them to think about their sin and fall into despair. So often I think a lot of people, including myself, will think like this, that God just wants me to be continually sorrowful because of my sin. But David says, “What will you gain if I die, if I sink into the grave? Can my dust praise you? Can it tell of your faithfulness?” David understands that this kind of life isn’t what God had intended, God doesn’t want me to sink into a grave of despair, and to “die” from my excessive sorrow. He wants to turn my mourning into joyful dancing, take away my mourning clothes and clothing me with joy. Why? So that I can sing praises to Him and not be silent.

This is the culmination of a redeemed life, that I can sing praises to God. This is the good that I can contribute; this is the redemption in store for me when I am confronted with my sin. God sees my life as a vehicle of praise for Himself, my life can be a temple of worship. He doesn’t see any “gain” in keeping my life stunted by my sin and remaining in spiritual death. Instead, even though my life has been marred by my sin and shame, He makes it useful again in order that it can be evidence that He is merciful and faithful. That provides the greatest security for me, that whenever I think my sin has gone too far, even then God does not find any gain in letting me remain in despair over my sin. He still desires that I be brought up from the grave, and be given a new life of joy.

Prayer
Heavenly Father, thank You so much for the grace you’ve given me. Honestly, I’ve fallen into those thoughts of despair, after being confronted with my sin and shame. But in today’s psalm, you’ve reminded me again that Your favor lasts a lifetime, that you find no gain, no delight in seeing me destroyed by my sin. Rather, You desire to turn my mourning into joyful dancing, to peel away my clothes of mourning to clothe me with joy. Thank You for Your incredible mercy, the high cost You’ve paid on the cross to bring me out of the depths, to save me from the grave. Lord, I commit to living a life that is in constant praise of You, telling of Your mercy and faithfulness in my life. I know that though my sin grieves and angers You, Your anger does not last forever. What a good and forgiving God You are. I am so undeserving of the grace I’ve received already and continue to receive. I pray that I will continue to hope in You alone, that there is no greater security than resting in Your love and favor upon my life. Amen.

Submitted by Tim F. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 30

Key Verses:
Psalm 30:1
I will exalt you, O Lord, for you lifted me out of the depths and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

Psalm 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

God is…
As we read through Jeremiah last week, we saw the heart of God. He gets angry because he loves us so much and yet we destroy our lives when we refuse to listen to him and we bow down to false gods. His anger is that of a parent as he sees his child self-destruct. There have been many times in my life where I felt the anger of God. I had done things, thought things, and said things that were like a slap in the face to God. And he confronted me about it. It definitely wasn’t pleasant, and it was exactly that unpleasantness that seared the pain of what I had done into my heart. Why is it that a parent has to come down hard on his child when they go running out into the street or play with things that could maim or kill them? That image of a parent showing anger is what stays in the child’s mind and keeps him from that situation the next time. There is merit to anger, if appropriately placed. So when God’s anger burned against me, boy did I feel it. Those were some horrible weeks that I went through. But what was the result? I think that my life is forever changed because of those few weeks. I learned lessons that will indeed last me a lifetime. And that just goes to show how v. 5 is indeed true. There are moments of repentance, when God’s word comes at me with fire. Though at the time it doesn’t feel like it is “only a moment,” yet later when I look back on those times and see just how much fruit those times of repentance have yielded, the favor that has lasted seemingly a lifetime out of it, I can indeed testify to this verse. There will be times of repentance in my life. But I must take heart and not lose courage, because though those painful times come, the overwhelming reality will be that those times will indeed seem like it was just a moment, and his blessing, the way he leads my life when I have repented, that favor will indeed seem like it is lasting a lifetime!

Lesson for me:
Looking at v. 1, what kind of enemy gloats over the one they are beating? You would gloat if you beat someone that you have been in fierce competition with, someone that you are neck and neck with. These are the kinds of enemies that are around me today. I don’t realize that the enemies of my soul are this serious and strong, then I am not seeing reality. I remember the days when I would think that I was so strong, the days of my youth when I felt like “I could change whenever I wanted to” and “this has no power over me.” Whenever I would hear a message of warning about the devil and his schemes, I wouldn’t take it all that seriously, I felt so strong. But what has happened over the years? I have failed. Time and time again. And after each of these failures, I looked back and remember how confident I felt in my ability to fight off sin and see how misplaced that confidence was. As I get older, and the times of failure are ever before me, my confidence in myself has given way to a clearer view of who I really am as well as an accurate view of how powerful the enemy, the devil, is. When I was young, the devil definitely had his moments of gloating over my defeat. There were times I am sure he was ecstatic over my fall, my failure. But I learned. After all those failures, I learned just how strong the enemy is, and just how weak I am. And I learned that I cannot rely on myself to triumph, I need a stronger man, much stronger then I am. And it is in my older age, as I call out to God more and more, asking him to lift me out of the depths, that is when I experience God’s deliverance, and that is when the gloating of the devil starts to be silenced. The devil is strong, there is no way I can defeat him of my own power. The only hope that I have is to call out to God for help. Lord, may I be humble and know my weakness and come before you to lift me up and depend on you for deliverance.

Prayer:
Heavenly father, I praise your name, I exalt your name to the highest place. Lord, as I look back on my life and see just how you delivered me from the depths of my own sin, how you came and, like a parent, took hold of my life and yanked it from the downward spiral it was in, how can I not but sing your praises. Lord, though there were tough times along the way, times which are still very vivid in my memory, times when your righteousness was revealed and repentance was called for, yet because of your action in my life, I am indeed seeing that your favor lasts a lifetime. It was hard to see it at first, and indeed the gloating of the enemies around me was loud, yet now that many years have gone by, I can see more clearly how living my life according to your will has blessed me in so many ways. Lord, it is the devil’s way to make me feel like a fool for following you, and oh how I felt the pressure of that mockery. But every year that goes by just reveals to me all the more how much your ways are right and indeed the only way to live. The world’s lies become shown for what they are as the days go by, and those people that mocked you, along with those people who thought they can handle life on their own without you, Lord, those people are seeing the consequences of their actions. Lord thank you that somehow I was saved from a life lived as the world tells me to. I know it is only by your grace that I was saved from those depths.

Submitted by David L. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 30

Key Verses
Psalm 30:3 “O LORD, you brought me up from the grave; you spared me from going down into the pit.”

Psalm 30:5 “For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning

Psalm 30:11-12 “You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!” (NLT)

God is …
v.3 He is a God of mercy, a God of second chances, a God who saves, and a God of redemption. As Paul writes in Romans 4:17, he is “the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were.” This is the testimony of every believer, especially my own as I recall how I was once headed down a path of destruction until God initiated His salvation plan through the Cross and brought me to a point of repentance. As one who grew up in the church, I realize how deluded I was about the state of my relationship with God as I was merely a Sunday Christian who, on the other hand, lived quite a secular life. I was a slave to my desires and appetites, hoarding my possessions and focused solely on self and my needs. In retrospect, I was a poor witness to others as a so-called “follower of Christ” and absolutely had no impact on the lives of my non-Christian friends. Had God not demonstrated His mercy by rescuing me by bringing me to Gracepoint where I found people who passionately lived out the gospel daily, I shudder to think of how I would have ended up living a life of isolation, shallowness, and irrelevance.

I recall many times being confronted by the truth of how the Bible described my sinful heart, and grappling with the decision to either accept or reject its claims about me. Though that process was full of pain and often brought me to a point of despair, I remember the immense joy that I felt in finally letting go of my pride and confessing my sins, thereby making the Cross of Jesus much more of a tangible reality in my life. I’ve come to realize that this cycle of being confronted with the truth of God’s word and the choice I have to either accept or reject it’s claims about my sins, is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life, and only when I accept it, will I be able to experience the power of Psalm 30:11-12 coming to fruition in my life.

Lessons for me …
The lesson I have learned from this verse is to never stop loving people, or lose hope in the power of what God can do. I have learned that His zeal to save and transform lives is far greater than any of my doubts, prejudices, and my lack of faith. Personally, I look back on these 4 years in Austin and it’s truly been a miracle what God has done. I occasionally joke to myself and with the other staff by saying that God actually worked despite anything we did, given our own issues and sins. This reality is both humbling and reassuring at the same time as it reveals that He is sovereign, and He is the one who is building this church. All I can do is be as faithful as I can in loving people and freely investing my time, money, and resources in them no matter how unresponsive or disinterested they appear on the outside because God is the one who does the work of changing their hearts.

I have also learned that when I regularly reflect on my own testimony of how God rescued a broken sinner like me, and allow that truth to bring me to a point of humility where I can boast in nothing other than what He has done, only then will I be able to experience the thrill and joy of serving Him, and witness the salvation work He is doing in the lives of people. I believe that the extent of my joy and gratitude I have for my salvation will ultimately be the determining factor of what sustains me year after year as I commit to giving my life for the sake of the gospel.

Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for saving a wretch like me from falling into the pit of despair and raising me up from the grave. Even though I deserved your judgment, you showed your great mercy to me through the blood of Jesus. Lord, I am amazed that you have invited me to join in your Kingdom work of saving souls. I praise you for your faithfulness these past 4 years as you have answered our prayers and did even more than what we expected since moving out to Austin. I praise you for the transformative work you’ve done in the lives of many of our students, with 120 people making salvation and Lordship decisions up to this point.

Thank you for being my good shepherd and for teaching me what it means to minister to someone with persevering/enduring love. Lord, I commit to remembering the depths from which you saved me so that I may always operate out of the joy of my salvation and the humility of knowing that all that I have received and experienced has been undeserved and solely been given to me out of your mercy and grace. Thank you, and in Jesus’ name, Amen.

May 14 – Devotion Sharing (Psalm 27)

Submitted by Maurice C. Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 27

God is … /Lessons for me …

1 The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear?

We are so bound up in fear–fear of not being cool enough, smart enough, “with it” enough, having enough, achieving enough, being impressive enough, etc.  In what way do we fear these? In fairly real ways with genuine fear that it will diminish me somehow if they come to pass, causing me anxiety, shifting of my priorities, an overall sense of lack of well being. That I will somehow miss out in life, be unable to maximize my life’s experience, wrench as much out of it as I can. And if I have already failed to maximize my potential so far in life, then I’m already behind and can never catch up. That nagging suspicion that I am already a failure.

But if God is my salvation, then those comparisons lose their strength and force of meaning. For those who face actual opposition to their Christian faith, and real potential risk and sacrifice, then God as their light, salvation, protects against that. But even for those who live more prosaic lives, the daily battles against my own sins and ups and downs, the fears that nag and cause me to doubt myself and even my relationships with God, family, and others – God’s salvation is not too great so that it doesn’t address these fears also. How? How does the Psalmist have such confidence against evil and fear within and without, that he speaks of throughout the Psalm? It is not so much a theoretical or philosophical confidence, but a relational one. It is in the fact that he will live in God’s house and temple (v. 4). It is trusting in the person of God. I fear the world’s judging of my life and declaring it a waste – but if I seek what God seeks and he is pleased, suddenly what the world thinks (or doesn’t think) of my life doesn’t matter anymore. I fear not having enough resources, to take care of my parents, myself, my future family – but if God is not an impersonal Being, but my heavenly Father (Matthew 6) who cares about me and knows my needs far more than even the most perfect of earthly fathers, then my fears can be settled by my trust in Him. And of course, the greatest of lacks is my inability to address and take care of my sins, my failures, the way I disappoint others and God, let down those I love, and hurt those around me. That is perhaps the greatest and scariest fear – but the Cross reminds me that God’s love found a way to take care of even that need.

v. 5 “For in the day of trouble…” – Troubles are completely prevented; there may indeed be a day of trouble to come, as long as we live as broken people in this broken world. But it is in being with God that we will be safe. The troubles are there, my sins are there, this world is fallen, but the difference is made in whether I am safe in God’s relational circle or not. Like a soldier who unhesitatingly follows his wise, brave, and strong commander into battle, carried not by intellectual arguments about his commander’s goodness but assured in his relationship of trust with him, the battle is still to be faced – but the experience and outcome of it is drastically made different by the relationship. The trust. And what is the basis of that? It is wholly on whether I choose to receive it or not, whether I allow myself to be placed in that circle of trust or not. God gives freely to everyone who asks. Christians and non-Christians go through troubling times alike. But those who have only their own resources, especially emotional and relational, to rely on, suffer far more. Thus our greatest issue and concern is expressed in verse 9 – “Do not hide your face from me.” That is the greatest thing we should really fear; that God might turn his face away from us–again, the relational concern and aspect. And as we struggle we might even echo the prayer from later in verse 9 – “Do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Savior.” We might experience our struggling in this way, thinking that God rejects or forsakes us. But we know from the overwhelming testimony throughout both the Old and New Testament that God does not forsake us, does not give up on appealing to his people despite sin after sin. It is we who turn from God. And the psalmist reminds himself of this in the following verse, “Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.” Reinforcing the point again that if we only but turn to God, he will receive us. That is amazingly enough–it is we who dictate the terms of whether we experience the protection and comfort of relationship with God or not. The big lesson for me here is that first, when my fears seem to take on a voice that crowds out the concerns of God, it is probably a sign that I have drifted away from trust in my relationship with God, and I need to turn to methods to repair it – either in time spent with him in the Word, in prayer echoing the words of this Psalm, in song, or perhaps even simply meditation and “being with him”; and second, that I am the one who is in control of whether I will experience God’s presence overcoming those fears. It is in my control whether I experience God “turning his face away from me,” so to speak, or if I find myself secure in his presence and his ultimate promise to take me to his home.

Prayer

Dear Lord, in my calmer moments I think I am indeed affected by my fears. Fears of being unable to treat people close to me properly, including my family, my friends, and the people you have given to me at this church to love. But those fears, while not being completely unfounded, become less fearsome under the umbrella of your presence. Because, was I not in a far worse condition when you rescued me? And your power reversed and redeemed those darkest points of my life, not into material and worldly blessing, but into a greater and deeper understanding of and relationship with you. And it has been your person and presence that have made other times of difficulty, whether external or internal, bearable. So, though perhaps causes for fears will grow, as I go from being completely unconnected and irresponsible, to having a growing web of relationships, responsibilities, and therefore potentials for fear, I will place myself more fully into your hands, trusting that you receive me despite my sins and failures, trusting that your heart for me is to live rightly and in a godly fashion, and therefore to submit to your leadings and those you have placed in my life to guide me, will lead me in a straight path. Do not turn me over to my fears, my ungodly desires, and my prideful and selfish ways – but lead me on the straight path, since I know you are good, and your heart for me is as the good Father. I will wait on you, Lord, and will seek stability and strength in my life in that waiting on of you. Thank you for embracing me and giving me the chance to have relationship with you, knowing I do not deserve it, but so desperately need it.

Submitted by Debbie F. Gracepoint Austin Church

Key Verse: 27:4

4       One thing I ask of the Lord,

this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

and to seek him in his temple.

Jesus was also named Immanuel, God with us. This is the desire of God’s heart, that He may have us dwell in His house all the days of our lives, as well.  What sentiment of my heart would most please God, is this very verse.  That the one thing in my life that I desire and ask for is to be with Him.  And what cry of the heart would God most want to meet and answer is this.

God is …

v.1 – my light and my salvation, the stronghold of my life.  He is the one who helps me see truth, delivers me from the evil one and from my own sin, the one who girds me with strength to continue to seek truth and to follow His righteous ways when everything else around me “advances against me,” striving to keep me from these ends and purposes.

v.10 – the one who will unconditionally receive me as His child.  Nothing in my life, not even all of my failures, will ever separate me from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus my Lord (Rom 8).  Whenever I come back to him after my travels to distant countries (Luke 15), He will still receive me, gladly.

v.11 – the one who guides me in the paths of righteousness.  John 15 – Apart from Him I can do nothing… good.  That’s clear, when I draw away from Him, the only things that come out of me is selfishness, laziness, self-preservation.  It’s only when I am with Him, seeking to follow Him closely, that I find the path of righteousness at all, and I can live anywhere near how God meant for me to live, righteously.

Prayer

Oh Lord, because You are the Light of the world, I see sin so much more clearly, how sin drags people away from you, how sin broke apart love relationships, sin that always had its roots in pride, selfishness, refusal to bend, refusal to accept truth, refusal to repent before you.  And I see the roots of those same sins in my own life, because of the light of your word, that exposes the darkness in my heart… my own selfishness that insists on things that fill my desire for my own comfortable life, my pride that refuses to acknowledge when I’ve done wrong, before you and against others, my pride that would rather run away that to confess and apologize and seek restoration.  Your light feels like it burns… but every time, it is in Your Light that I experience a new morning with a clean slate, freedom, community.  You are indeed my light and my salvation, I’ve only found salvation in your light.

And because of that, there’s really nothing and no one that I need to fear.  You are the stronghold of my life… if you see my sin at its fullest and yet you still give me light and salvation, really what is there to fear in life?  You are the stronghold of my life…

So though Satan and his forces may advance against me, temptations attack me, my sin and failures besiege me, and hurt and disappointments break out against me, in the end, I will be confident, because I have you.

That much more, I ask of you Lord, be with me, make your dwelling within and around me, let me know you more as I seek you.  Just because I found you 19 years ago when you first saved me, I seek you ever more today, because I need you to keep me in your presence, to hide me in your holiness and forgiveness, else I will find days of trouble because of my sin and the sin around me.  That much is clear.  If I’m not with you, I find days of trouble.  Please Lord, keep me safe n your dwelling.

Make my heart seek your face, to seek to know you more and more, because still, too often, I deceive myself into thinking that I’m trustworthy to live life on my own, to even engage in ministry on my own.  No, Lord, make me seek your face, seek your word, hunger to hear from you and to seek your help, because the truth of my condition is that apart from you I can do nothing; apart from you, I will find days of trouble.  Teach me your ways, lead me in a straight path, and remind me that waiting for the Lord, to hear from you, to be received by you, is always the very best place to be.  It really is, and I’m confident of it.  Yet make me need you more, Lord, that I may find you more and know you more.

Submitted by Daryl W. from Gracepoint Austin Church

Psalm 27 (NLT)

Key Verse

Verse 4

One thing I ask of the Lord,

this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

and to seek him in his temple.

The one thing I ask of the Lord—

the thing I seek most—

is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,

delighting in the Lord’s perfections

and meditating in his Temple.

God is …

God is the ONE Person who is most desirable in life.  There is nothing close to knowing Him.  He is infinitely wonderful to behold, and entirely worthy of the foundation of my life goals.  I was created to relate with Him.  This is my main purpose in life, and thus is the most fulfilling and meaningful.  To ask Him to give me more than Himself, which He has already proven completely, is to show that my desires are misplaced.  He is great beyond description, and all joys and pleasures of this world are at best but a hint of what we will experience when we see Him face to face!

Lessons for me …

My real enemies are anything that might draw me away from my proper desire for God.  The real enemies are that which makes me desire for things of this world, that which makes me think that true joy and hope is found elsewhere.  Worldly trouble, persecution, and trials are not something to always be avoided, if they help me draw closer to God and experience Him in a deeper way.  I need to be wary of if I am avoiding something painful without acknowledging it as a way to long for His righteousness and goodness.  My own flaws and mistakes, the pressures and challenges of trying to love people, the giving of the time and resources I have, the people who think me strange for how I live – these can all be opportunities to reaffirm that His is worthy and He is desirable.  Yet inside my sinful heart, I know that if I am not vigilant to honor the truth in my life, then my flesh would tend to make God into the enemy of my selfish desires, as the world tells me to.  So prayers like this one, based on God’s word, are necessary to continue to maintain that dependent, trusting relationship with God, who ultimately does want what is best for me.

Prayer

Father, I acknowledge that You are the one desire of my life, You are the greatest that I could ever desire and pursue.  Though my eyes are veiled for this short time, I want to trust that You are so much more glorious than the things of this world that vie for my attention, creating fear and anxiety in me.

Though financial worries can easily consume me, I defer to the ways that You have provided for me so faithfully for all of my life to this very day as I feebly try to trust You – and that through a life of love, I have received so much more of a full and joyful life.  Though this secular and individualistic society constantly tells me to think about myself and my family above all else, I know that a right relationship with You is a far surpassing goal instead, and You are the designer of a much greater, stronger community that I am called to serve and live among.

Particularly for this coming year and for myself personally, I know that we are going to be stretched even more here at our Austin church, responsible for more people and called to be able to love more people.  Help me to grow in depth of relating with You and seeking Your will and wisdom in prayer during this time, rather than putting pressure on myself to be successful in a worldly way. I want to experience Your great love for me and for those I am ministering to more and more this coming year!

May 11 – Devotion Sharing (Jeremiah 46-50)

Submitted by Hannah Y. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

Jer. 46:28 “ Though I completely destroy all the nations among which I scatter you, I will not completely destroy you”

Jer. 48:47 “Yet I will restore the fortunes of Moab in the days to come” declares the Lord.

Jer. 49:6 “Yet afterward, I will restore the fortunes of the Ammonites.” declares the Lord.

Jer. 49:39 “Yet I will restore the fortunes of Elam in the days to come” declares the Lord.

God is …

God is Sovereign over all the nations and He will assert His rightful place in them.  God is a God of justice.  He cannot tolerate the defiance, pride, arrogance, and idolatry of His people.  In God there is no falsehood or deception.  Ultimately the truth will prevail and God will pronounce his judgment on those who are godless.  In these last chapters of Jeremiah, we see God’s final judgment upon the nations and their final destiny.  God is clear about the destiny of those who are disobedient and idolatrous, and He is not like the false prophets who were promising peace when there was no peace.  He will swiftly deal with his rebellious people.  However, God is also a God of mercy.  He wants to restore the fortunes of the nations that He destroyed and there is that note of hope. Through this we can see that God’s heart is really that people would repent and turn to Him and he does not want to completely destroy.  He is willing to deal with them, willing to go through all these years of sending prophets to warn them, admonish them and plead with them to turn from their wickedness and their adulterous hearts.  Even to the very end, after final destruction of the nations, in “days to come”, God is willing to restore them and desires to see them have a new beginning.

Lessons for me …

Finally, in the last pages of Jeremiah, as I read the prophecies spoken to these different nations, Egypt, Philistia, Moab, Ammon, Edom, Damascus, Kedar and Hazar, Elam and finally to Babylon, it was a chilling feeling to go through the variety of emotions as God pronounces their final destiny.  I was struck by God’s tireless dealing with the nations, wanting them to repent and to turn to Him.  Each of these nations sinned against God in different ways and aroused his righteous anger, but I was particularly struck by what God says to Moab and Babylon.  It seems that Moab was known for their pride and arrogance.  Jer48: 29 it says “we have heard of Moab’s pride, her overweening pride and conceit, her pride and arrogance, the haughtiness of her heart.  I know her insolence but it is futile,” Declares the Lord, “and her boasts accomplish nothing”.  I thought about how Moab is such an apt picture of our society today.  They trusted in their deeds and riches (48:7).  Instead of trusting in God, they became so used to their wealth and material possessions, that they trusted in themselves, they trusted in the stuff they attained, perhaps large buildings, cutting edge technology of their time, good food and wine, abundance of possessions, their physical stature, and their fame among the other nations.  I can see how trusting in these outwardly things can give you such a sense of security.  April was promotion season for my company and as my coworkers were talking about who will be promoted, how the company will be reorganized, who will be recognized for their achievements, it was obvious that those who were getting that promotion just felt so secure and so good.  And those who didn’t get mentioned had such a sense of insecurity, some even bad mouthing management that they were not chosen to be recognized.  Even in this little way, I thought about how we are so prone to be like Moab.  I could really sense God’s heart, reaching out to them, urging them to turn from their pride and to turn to God.  48:31 says, “I will wail for you Moab, for all Moab I cry out…I weep for you”.  This is God’s heart for Moab and for me because He knows our destiny.  He knows that in the end, their “jars will be smashed”, “their towns will be invaded”, their glorious staff will be broken, they will be ashamed, their fortified cities will be in ruin, and their finest men will go down in the slaughter.  Ultimately, all that they took pride in would be completely destroyed.  Moab will be broken down.  It made me see how God wants me to let go of the pride that I find in myself through these fleeting things, and to humbly see the truth and the reality that He is the one who provides true security and reason for pride and boasting.  That I should not boast in myself but in Him.

I was by Babylon as well.  This is the nation that was conquering and defeating other nations.  But in the end, their time came as well.  Babylon had been God’s way of bringing down these sinful nations.  51:20 “you are my war club, my weapon for battle- with you I shatter nations, with you I destroy kingdoms…”  Babylon seemed like such a successful nation this whole time, but in the end, Babylon too fell into God’s hands and eventually became a desolate nation.  I thought about how indeed there will be times of success.  There will times of conquest, times of feeling superior and satisfied because of success, but in the process, I can not leave God and depend on my own successes and competence.   Babylon was punished for their sinful ways, turning from God and worshipping idols, and their wicked treatment of those in captivity. This was a warning for me.  Especially when things seem to be going well, and when I find that temptation to just depend on myself and go in cruise control in my spiritual life. I was reminded again that I need to come back to the truth.  The truth that I am at the mercy of God, that I am a wretched sinner in constant need of God’s forgiveness, and that I have this privilege of being a minister of reconciliation for God.

Finally, in the midst of so much anguish, wrath, anger toward the sins of the nations, there are pockets of hope for His people who are in captivity.  He says in Ch 46: 27-28“Do not fear, O Jacob my servant; do not be dismayed, O Israel. I will surely save you out of a distant place, your descendants from the land of their exile. Jacob will again have peace and security, and no one will make him afraid. 28 Do not fear, O Jacob my servant, for I am with you,” declares the Lord. “Though I completely destroy all the nations among which I scatter you, I will not completely destroy you. I will discipline you but only with justice; I will not let you go entirely unpunished.”  And He also tells Egypt, Elam, Moab and Ammon that He will restore the fortunes of these nations.  God’s intense love for his people is so clear.  Like the heart of a parent, the most intense anger, outrage and discipline is reserved for their children who they love more than anything.  I often feel this way when disciplining my own child.  However, the hope is that we would repent and turn to Him again and place Him in the rightful place in our lives.  I can see that even through all the severe judgment that God brings to these nations, His heart is for there to be restoration.

Prayer
Dear heavenly Father, as I see the way you dealt with all these nations, Oh lord, I confess that my heart is prone to this kind of godlessness and defiance.  When things go well, when things seem to be pretty smooth, please protect me from that temptation to think that it is because of my own capabilities and my own efforts. Protect my heart from becoming proud and arrogant like Moab, which you had to break down to establish the truth of who you are.  Please help me to be warned by the fate of all these nations, that ultimately you are in control and that I am at your mercy.  Please help me to come back to the truth of who I am and how I got here.  It’s through your mercy and how you worked in my life.  And thank you for loving me with this kind of intensity.  Please help me to receive your discipline and warnings with humility so that you can establish the truth of who you are in my life.

Submitted by Abe Y. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

Jeremiah 48:29-30:

29 “We have heard of Moab’s pride — her overweening pride and conceit, her pride and arrogance     and the haughtiness of her heart.  30 I know her insolence but it is futile,” declares the Lord,  “and her boasts accomplish nothing.

God is…

Up until now, it may seem that God is only against Judah for the sins they’ve committed, but this is clearly not the case. Here, we see see God’s response to the sins of the neighboring nations. Jeremiah foretells the destruction and downfall of Egypt, Philistines, Moab, Ammon, Edom, Damascus, Kedar, Hazor, Elam, and even the mighty Babylon. No one — no kingdom — is exempt from God’s mighty judgment.

In Jeremiah 48, we get a glimpse into God’s view of Moab. A good part of the chapter starts with the prophecy of what God will do to that nation, how God will run them off and they will become captives to foreign nations. He tells them that their days of comfort will come abruptly to an end (vv.11-13), and that their glory days are over (vv.18-25).

What is God’s main complaint against Moab? What have they been doing that deserve such punishment? Part of it is due to their worship in Chemosh, in this fictitious, made-up god.  However, it seems that God is far angrier by their pride. He is disgusted by Moab’s “overweening pride and conceit, her pride and arrogance and the haughtiness of her heart” (v.29). This is God’s main complaint against Moab, and for this reason alone, God will bring judgment against her.

Lessons for me…

In my younger days, much of my time was spent on fighting and struggling against more apparent sins. I remember constantly fighting against my lustful, fleshly desires, and that was a source of many troubles. I had a hard time in loving people, giving people my time and my heart when those are the things that I want to hold onto. I had to battle with a plethora of character issues, in learning to become just a better human being.

This isn’t to say that I don’t deal with these anymore. No, those battles are still there to this day. However, one thing I’ve been learning and relearning over the years is just how proud and boastful of a person I am. I may not be so clueless as to flaunt my skills and abilities, or to show off my intelligence, but deep in my heart, there are ways in which I continue to allow my pride to fester and grow. One thing that’s become more and more apparent to me is the different facets in which pride can reveal itself. For example, there exists within me the pride of wanting to be right, no matter what. Thus, when someone disagrees with me, or just cannot understand a certain position, I feel something inside of me swelling up. My natural instinct is to puff up, and bring out the reasons and logical arguments, to show how this person is in the wrong. This happened recently in which it became so bad, that only afterwards, when the dust had settled, I realized that I had completely missed what was really going on inside of him; I got so caught up by what he said, that I missed out on what he really meant. In our conversation, I knew I was in the right, but I so badly wanted this brother to know it, too. I was so immature, so proud, that I couldn’t bear the thought of him walking away, thinking that he was in the right. And so, I got so caught up in the tit-for-tat argument that I missed his heart — what was going on underneath — completely. It was an opportunity to really lift up this brother and encourage him, to bring truth from God in a very uplifting manner. Instead, the conversation just went further and further south.

God is adamantly against pride because it causes people to be blind — blind towards others, blind about themselves, and blind towards Him. Can we really minister to people if we’re like the Moabites — filled with pride, conceit, arrogance, and haughtiness of the heart? “Her boasts accomplish nothing,” God says of Moab (v.30). For the nation of Moab, nothing could shake them out of this stupor, so God had to go in and intervene. For them, God had to put them to the sword — for me, it was through a painful conversation that shook me out of my own stupor.

However, God’s judgment of doom will not last forever — not on this side of heaven, anyways. Unlike me, who’s so petty and immature as to just wanting to win an argument, God cares more about winning over His people. He’s not punishing these nations to show them “who’s boss,” to show them how utterly weak they are. It is that — but also much more. With the nation of Judah, for example, even though they are so far away in their sin, He says that he will “not completely destroy [them].” Though they will go to exile, He tells them, “Do not fear.. for I am with you” (46:28). Even to the Moabites — a nation that is not of His chosen people, He does not just turn them over to destruction and leave it at that. We see that God “wails over” them, that “for all Moab [He] cries out” and “moan for the men of Kir Hareseth” (48:31). This is God’s heart for His people — He punishes them for their sin, but He mourns and laments over their sorry state. He longs for them — even the foreign nation of Moab — to let go of their pride, to see themselves as they really are, and to return back to Him. He disciplines them out of His deep love and concern for them.

O, how I am so unlike God — how I lack the Father’s compassionate heart for others. I, in my pride, am still far too petty. I, in my pride, care more about maintaining the respect of others than to take the risk of actually caring for someone.

Prayer

Lord, help me to become more and more like You. Help me to continue to die to my pride daily — the pride that gets stirred when someone rubs me the wrong way, the pride that refuses to back down, the pride that insists that I am in the right at all costs. Lord, it’s this pride that is so heinous in Your sight — isn’t it this pride that causes people and nations to fall away from You? Father, let me die to this pride so that I may be able to love others — not just making sure that they’re doing the right things, but to genuinely love and care for them. Father, even in the midst of disciplining Your loved ones, Your heart continues to reach out to them. Let me become more like You, to be able to cry out on their behalf, to be genuinely remorseful over their estate when they fall away, rather than taking in what they’ve done as an indictment against me. Let me not take their offenses personally — after all, it’s not me that they’re spurning, but You! Help me to do all that I can to win over people’s souls, even if it’s costly to me — to my emotions, to my energy level, to my pride. Let this vicious pride die, so that I may love others wholeheartedly!

Submitted by Ernestine L. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

“the people of Israel and the people of Judah together will go in tears to seek the LORD their God. 5They will ask the way to Zion and turn their faces toward it. They will come and bind themselves to the LORD in an everlasting covenant that will not be forgotten. –Jeremiah 50:4-5

God is …

At this point, Israel has been marked by much bloodshed, battle and unfaithfulness to God. However, in these concluding chapters of the book of Jeremiah, we see God’s final and ultimate heart for His people. He sees His people – He sees them terrified, retreating, hopeless and beaten. Though they have experienced much defeat, the Lord their God gives them a message of hope, of fierce confidence in Him. We see this god of retribution once again extending His arms to protect Israel, telling Jeremiah that He would bring them back and bind them to Himself as it says in Chapter 50.

God is a god who wants to build up His people and keep them from destruction. The beginning of Chapter 46 lays out a picture of God’s building up of His people and the promise of safety. God tells Israel that they should not fear and not be in dismay, for He will surely save them out of a distant place, that Jacob will again receive peace and security. Though he will destroy all the nations and scatter His people among them, God has a plan for them. He does this not because He wants his people to continue suffering or enduring shame and punishment. His loving discipline is that of a Father’s for His wandering and confused children. God’s heart for His people is one of a deep love that wants them to ultimately experience victory, but only through being humbled and broken. So they would not be left without hope, but instead with a hope entirely from and in God. The victory becomes sweet as they will experience returning and clinging onto God for dear life.

God hates pride. He detests it. As we look at the Moabites and the other nations, we see the extent of God’s heart against that deeply rooted sin called pride. As the chapters go on to include God’s message against the nations – Philistines, Moab, Ammon and so on, we take a look at just how much the Moabites banked on things that did not last – they trusted in their deeds and riches, but soon enough they too would be held captive and none of what they amounted to would matter. They indulged in their riches, in their idols and altars and ultimately retreated from reality, seeking comfort by keeping the sword from bloodshed.

And yet, a remarkable thing to note about our God is that He is one of deep compassion. Though He proclaims to Jeremiah the detailed accounts of how each of these nations will ultimately be brought down; though they bask in their pride and arrogance right now, there is still that mark of mercy. “Yet I will restore the fortunes of Moab, in days to come,” declares the LORD. “Yet afterward, I will restore the fortunes of the Ammonites, declares the LORD. And the same goes for Elam. God’s mercy depicts perfectly for us the heart of God. Though these nations will be destroyed, He will restore and redeem them when their pride has been broken and destroyed. There is this plan for each nation in mind.

Lessons for me …

The downfall of Moab would be her pride – conceit, arrogance, haughtiness of heart, insolence as Jeremiah 48:29-30 lists. God sees this attitude and condition as detestable and yet pitiful because He then wails over Moab, cries out, moans for their men. How true of this is God’s heart for me when I am in the midst of my detestable pride, when I rage up inside against others, against God Himself; when I want control over my life and over others like the Moabites over their nation, when I too want to retreat and keep my sword from bloodshed, wanting to just indulge in the comforts, the idols, the “riches” in my life – things I think I have control over. Again, God’s heart is that these things will be destroyed, they will be no more, futile in the grand scheme of this spiritual battle I am engaged in.

We see the bittersweet return of the people of Israel in Chapter 50:4-5 – as the attacks on Babylon will take place, these are the times, declares the Lord, that “the people of Israel and the people of Judah together will go in tears to seek the LORD their God. They will ask the way to Zion and turn their faces toward it. They will come and bind themselves to the LORD in an everlasting covenant that will not be forgotten.” Finally, their hearts will want to turn back to God, after long turmoil, after much defeat of their pride and the accounts of their unfaithfulness. Only when they themselves have been beaten down can they return with such longing of heart. This is how God sees me and every person – only when pride has been banished, destroyed, when our hearts have been wrecked do we see the sweetness, the beautiful retreat back to God – wanting to be bound with the Lord in this everlasting covenant. Only as I see myself more clearly, as I experience my pride being torn down, my desire for some semblance of control that is finally relinquished do I acknowledge this ever desperate need to come back to God.

When I think of these nations that gave into their idols, whose man-made systems of self-gain and self-glorification proved faulty in the eyes of God, so pitiful and futile, I see how relevant this picture is to me when I do the same exact thing – when I claw after the things of this world – image, status, respect, self-glory, which only resort in pride and arrogance. God’s wrath is against this; He wages war against my pride. I think about the people so given into the heights of their hills, the people proud and arrogant b/c they think they’ve got it going strong and well for them at this moment in time. However, they do not know how much this is wrecking the heart of God; they have no idea how futile their efforts are – those who chase after seeking glory for themselves, being driven by their pride and arrogance. Ultimately, God beckons to the lost, to my heart when it goes astray, to these nations – to come in tears to seek Him, to be bound to His everlasting covenant, to finally be given peace and security.

From examining each of these nations and God’s response to them, I see the effect of my own pride, my own chasing after idols, my own building up of high places – it was because these things were never meant to be for those purposes. Though God blesses me with fortunes, I cannot take them, twist them for my own gains. As in ministry – I cannot use what I have received from God for gain of self-glory. In relationships, I cannot turn them for self-approval or comparison to make myself feel more or less of anything. When I receive responsibilities over tasks or ownership over people, again, I cannot bulk up in any sort of arrogance thinking I can handle more or less than someone else. God sees the folly of each nation and how they have been enraptured by the heights of their hills and the clefts of their rocks as the Edomites were. And when my pride is exposed, this is when God needs to destroy and conquer over my heart, when He has in mind the steps needed to bring down my arrogance, then His promise to each nation and to me is “Yet I will restore….”  And yet He has in mind to restore me and still bless me with a life used for His advancement.

Prayer

Father, I come to You with all my pride and arrogance. I am like these nations, foolishly thinking I could bask in comforts, thinking I could build up altars and high hills for myself when You want to destroy all of these things within me. The battle has been marked, and You alone have spoken against my pride, my arrogance, my insolence. Your great desire for me is to have me finally return and bind myself to Your everlasting covenant. Though You speak against my sinfulness, my pride; though You break me by revealing to me the truth about myself, I understand Your great mercy that desires for me to ultimately return in humility and sweet victory over the enemy. Father, I acknowledge the detestable pride within me that rages up when I seek control in areas of my life, when I seek control over others, when I seek some sort of high hill to stand on. And I seek after You for Your mighty hand, Your protection, Your guarding over my heart against being deceived by my pride. Father, thank You for Your heart and mercy over me.

Submitted by Joel L. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

“Do not fear, O Jacob my servant; do not be dismayed, O Israel.  I will surely save you out of a distant place, your descendants from the land of their exile.  Jacob will again have peace and security, and no one will make him afraid.  Do not fear, O Jacob my servant, for I am with you,” declares the Lord. “Though I completely destroy all the nations among which I scatter you, I will not completely destroy you. I will discipline you but only with justice; I will not let you go entirely unpunished.” – Jeremiah 46:27-28

God is …

From these chapters, I see God’s heart going out to the other nations besides Israel where He is pronouncing what will happen to them, and some kingdoms will be destroyed such that no one will live there again or some kingdoms will have their fortunes restored in the future after being punished. God’s heart is not only for His people in Israel, but He is concerned for the surrounding nations, and His words must have given some hope to the nations who would be restored one day though judgment was coming. Though Israel failed to obey His commands and be faithful to Him such that they would glorify His name, God still continues to work and pursue nations and people who would open up their hearts and minds to Him. In order for this to happen though, Israel and the nations need to be punished for their sins and their pride smashed. God is focused on salvations, and this  is with Him even in the midst of His anger and dealing with the nations. Even in the midst of punishing Israel, God is not totally angry with them, but He says they will return to their homeland and have rest and security.

Lessons for me …

Personally, I am so thankful that God is with me during those tough times where my sins are exposed or truths are revealed to me that expose my shame and guilt, because these are times where my pride instinctively rises up and wants to be arrogant and stubborn. Though I don’t want to experience the pain and suffering that comes from being humble and confessing, repentance is necessary and it’s the only way to see the reality about myself and the consequences of my choices. Time and time again I have experienced those times of rest and security afterwards, because I see with such greater clarity who I am and who God is, and the fear of the world and protecting my pride gets replaced with the proper fear of God. As with the nations that God is going to punish, so it is with me where my pride gets puffed up with the blessings of the world and comforts. The fear of God is diminished and sin grows and makes me senseless.

“Every man is senseless and without knowledge; every goldsmith is shamed by his idols.  His images are a fraud; they have no breath in them.  They are worthless, the objects of mockery;    when their judgment comes, they will perish. – Jeremiah 51:17-18

God knows for His people and for me that these idols will not satisfy and it pains His heart when we go down these paths and this is why God continues to speak to us so that we may remember Him and know Him. God doesn’t delight in punishing, but He wants to give us true rest and security. How maddening it is for God when I try to find these things in the world when I seek after financial security, being liked and approved by others, desiring to be comfortable, and other idols. These idols will demand more and more of my time, resources, and strength, and what is stripped is a closer walk with God and a heart without passion to do God’s will but my will. Being  a minister, I myself have to be vigilant against idols, because those who look to me for guidance , I need to be able to speak with conviction against idols that will take them down destructive paths. When things are going in their lives, I can trust God is with them and He’s ultimately working so that they may be saved, and this needs to be my heart for them despite whatever my feelings, emotions, and thoughts are filled with. My heart needs to be regularly engaged with God so that I can listen with an open heart and mind and heed God’s instruction and warning as He wants to prepare me for what is coming. When God speaks to me about some sin, I need to confess it right away. If God is speaking to me about my habits, character issues, or lack of love, I need to be desperate to respond and lift up prayers whenever I can.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, you are a holy God, and I can see a little of how your heart must be frustrated when those you  love seek after that which is detestable. These nations became proud because they trusted in their riches and success, and it led them down a path that caused them to sin greatly and leave a trail of victims. You are just when you punish, and I praise you that you remember your people so that they are not completely devastated. You offer hope and renewal when we are humbled and turn back to you, and I pray that I will be responsive when your word speaks to me and my rest and security will come from you. Though the truth may be uncomfortable for me, I pray that I will receive it with humility whether it be from your word, messages, or times of praying. Make me an instrument to do your will and share in your heart to rescue more and more people from the path of destruction and lead me to know you and your son, Jesus Christ. I pray that my heart will grow in fearing you more than anything else, and I will leave with your presence in my mind. May your name be glorified and not my name. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

May 10 – Devotion Sharing (Jeremiah 41-45)

Submitted by Eunice K. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Jeremiah 41-45

Key Verse

Jeremiah 45:4-5  The Lord said, “Say this to him: ‘This is what the Lord says: I will overthrow what I have built and uproot what I have planted, throughout the land. Should you then seek great things for yourself? Seek them not. For I will bring disaster on all people, declares the Lord,but wherever you go I will let you escape with your life.’”

God is …

The whole episode with Johanan is so tragic and maddening in a way.  There is that moment of hope when he and “all the people from the least to the greatest” came to Jeremiah asking for guidance and promising obedience to God.  And God answers them in such a reassuring and compassionate way, promising to build them up and to save them from the king of Babylon.  God talks about how he is grieved over the disaster he has inflicted on them and how he wants to restore them.  But once again, the people completely reject God’s words through Jeremiah.

This gives me insight into God’s heart as he carries out his judgment and wrath on his people.  It is not the picture of a raging, power-hungry king, who is simply angry that his subjects do not obey him.  Rather, it is the aching, long-suffering heart of a parent, who suffers rejection after rejection while eagerly hoping for his child to repent so that he can restore him and bless him.  I was struck by how even though God knows what’s in their hearts and that they are planning to reject his words through Jeremiah, still he gives them tender and compassionate promises and repeated warnings about what will happen if they disobey him.  It is a wounded and yet determined father who can’t give up, who still tries to persuade and plead even though he knows the son is so rebellious.

These chapters also give me a picture of how foolish and irrational we can be, as sinners, and what God’s response is to us.  It seems that Johanan and the people just could not trust God’s words because they were suspicious of Baruch and Jeremiah betraying them to the Babylonians, and because they were determined to seek safety in Egypt, where other Jews had fled.  And then in Egypt, when Jeremiah brings God’s warnings to all the Jewish exiles living there about their continued idolatry, they display amazingly revisionist memory and attribute the times they were well off in Jerusalem to the fact that they were engaged in idol worship.  It’s disheartening to say the least to see how the people simply did not learn their lesson and completely disbelieve God’s intentions despite all the warnings, all the prophetic words, and all the difficulties and grief.  How much more tragic and heart wrenching it must be for God.  And yet, it is amazing that God is not completely jaded and disgusted by their repeated offenses.  He continues to persist in trying to get through to them, following the Jewish exiles even into Egypt, still trying to reason with them and show them what their idolatry has led to.

Lessons for me …

I had to marvel once again at God’s persistence and commitment to his people.  It is the same kind of heart that we see in Apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians – this kind of long-suffering love despite rejection and offenses.  I realize how God is so often misunderstood.  It’s so wrong to see him as a taskmaster that arbitrarily demands various things from us, or a petty ruler who wants to limit our freedom. That is simply a shallow and mistaken understanding of God and his heart towards us.  In my own Christian life, I need to mature more in understanding and sharing God’s heart that aches for sinners and is so committed to struggling with them, expending so much effort to get them to understand who He is to them and what will lead to a blessed life.  I realize once again that I need to recalibrate my perspective of what is genuine love according to what I see about God’s heart. Genuine love is not about maintaining pleasant and positive feelings; it inevitably involves commitment and striving and suffering in order to lead people to relationship with God and salvation from sin that can be so bewildering and stubbornly foolish.

Chapter 45 is an interesting little chapter that once again gives insight into how narrow my personal perspective can be.  I can totally relate to Baruch, who is groaning and feeling worn out by all that has happened.  And God’s personal message to him is a wakeup call, that life is not about seeking “great things for yourself,” and to understand the much greater reality about what God is doing and what kind of times he lives in. He reminds Baruch that the fact that he is able to live is really due to God’s graciousness towards him.   Like Baruch, my perspective is so instinctively self-centered and at times I feel like I’m “worn out” in my efforts to serve God.  But what I need are times of having my perspective broadened to see what God is doing, how He is contending with so many people that reject him and misunderstand him, how he is holding back true judgment and what our sins truly deserve in order to try to save us.  Against this backdrop of reality, I realize that I really haven’t scratched the surface of sharing in God’s heart and engaging in the kind of love he calls me to.  I need to be brought to the fresh realization that God has been so merciful to me, and that the stakes are much higher than my personal comfort.  God is grieving and struggling over lost people and he calls me to share in his heart.

Submitted by Ben K. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

42:10-12:

‘If you stay in this land, I will build you up and not tear you down; I will plant you and not uproot you, for I am grieved over the disaster I have inflicted on you. Do not be afraid of the king of Babylon, whom you now fear. Do not be afraid of him, declares the Lord, for I am with you and will save you and deliver you from his hands.  I will show you compassion so that he will have compassion on you and restore you to your land.’

God Is…

A lot is revealed about God’s heart in God’s command to Johanan and his men in 42:10-12.  What’s interesting here is the amount of reassurance God gives them.  God could have just said, “I command you to stay.”  Instead, we see that God not only commands them to stay but He gives them many words of reassurance: I will build you up, I will plant you and not uproot you, do not be afraid of the king of Babylon, do not be afraid of him, I am with you, I will save you, I will deliver you, I will show you compassion, he will have compassion on you and restore you to your land.  It seems God recognizes that what he is asking them to do is scary and will require faith so his answer to their question of what they should do is full of reassurance.  God hopes and wishes for his people to trust him.  God wants them to trust in his heart for them, to trust in his power.  An important aspect of any relationship is trust, and it is no different in our relationship with God. I am reminded of Proverbs 3:5 which says:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”

What also stood out to me in 42:10-12 is that God admits to grieving over the disaster he has inflicted.  Though it was something that He chose to do, He still grieves over it.  It’s like a loving parent who disciplines his child out of love, but seeing the pain of his child causes the parent to hurt too. God’s discipline isn’t cold hatred or heartless vengeance, but God shares in the pain of his people as he disciplines them.  The picture of God that emerges through Jeremiah is a loving God who wants people to repent and enter into a trusting relationship with Him.

Lessons for me…

Because Ishmael and some men killed Gedaliah (the governor appointed by the king of Babylon), Babylonian soldiers and some Jews, the remnant in Judah are afraid of Babylonian retaliation.  Johanan and company are fearful for their lives so they consult Jeremiah asking him to ask God where they should go and what they should do.  Which country should they run away to?  What’s the best strategy for their survival?  In 42:5-6 they say to Jeremiah:

“May the Lord be a true and faithful witness against us if we do not act in accordance with everything the Lord your God sends you to tell us. Whether it is favorable or unfavorable, we will obey the Lord our God…”

However, when Jeremiah tells them what God’s told him, they don’t accept it because it’s not the answer they were looking for.  God tells them to go nowhere, to stay where they are.  From their perspective, this is the least strategic advice because they were convinced that the king of Babylon would destroy them if they stayed.  They were gripped by their fear and so they did not obey God.  Instead of admitting that they were disobeying because lacked faith and were afraid, they attack Jeremiah’s character and cast suspicion on his motives in 43:2-3:

“You are lying! The Lord our God has not sent you to say, ‘You must not go to Egypt to settle there.’ But Baruch son of Neriah is inciting you against us to hand us over to the Babylonians, so they may kill us or carry us into exile to Babylon.”

There are times when I feel like Johanan and company and find it hard to trust God.  I remember when I first started working and got my first meager paycheck, I started to feel anxious about money and career.  I equated money with security because I grew up wealthy but after my father passed away there was financial insecurity and there are a lot of negative feelings associated with not having enough money.  I made more than enough money to get by with my new job, but my insecurity drove me to desire more.  For the most part there wasn’t much tension between serving God and doing my job, but at times when the demands of work and ministry increased at the same time and I felt tired, the thought would cross my mind that if I didn’t have minsitry responsibilities to worry about, I would be able to invest so much more in my career.

During times of anxiety and fear God reassures me through his words much like he addressed the fears of Johanan and his men.  God addresses my issues time and time again through daily devotions and messages, and I am amazed by the constant provision of His words.  When I was struggling with financial anxiety, His words encouraged me to continue to follow Him and to trust him as my only source of security.  Were it not for God’s reassurance through his word, I would not be here at a church plant today nor would I have experienced the joy of seeing God so powerfully at work in our midst and seeing so many precious brothers and sisters come to salvation.

If we believe that God is all-powerful and that He is good, we ought to trust Him.  In 43:10 God calls the king of Babylon “my servant Nebuchadnezzar.”  God calls this incredibly powerful king that was the cause of such great fear for Johanan “my servant.”  I was reminded of Isaiah 40:15:

Surely the nations are like a drop in a bucket;
they are regarded as dust on the scales; 

To God, all the nations are like a drop in a bucket.  I was reminded that God really is this big, and He bigger than all my problems, concerns, and anxieties.  I can be sure that no matter what the issue may be, my trust in God is not misplaced.

Prayer

Lord Jesus, I am reminded again that you are a good God with good intentions for me and that you are mighty and powerful.  Please forgive me for my lack of faith and trust in you and for looking towards other things to provide my security and significance.  I thank you for your timely words that reassure me time and time again to trust in you.  And I thank you for all the blessings I have received through trusting in you.  You are indeed a faithful and trustworthy God!  In Jesus name, Amen.

May 9 – Devotion Sharing (Jeremiah 36-40)

Submitted by Steve K. from Gracepoint Riverside Church
Jeremiah 36-40
Key Verse
Jeremiah 38:20
“‘They will not hand you over,’ Jeremiah replied. ‘Obey the Lord by doing what I tell you. Then it will go well with you, and your life will be spared.”

God is …
Jeremiah 36:3 “Perhaps when the people of Judah hear about every disaster I plan to inflict on them, each of them will turn from his wicked way; then I will forgive their wickedness and their sin.”

In this verse God expresses His heart behind why He goes through the trouble of trying to warn the people of Judah through Jeremiah. Ultimately He wants them to heed the warning of the coming disaster and to turn from their wicked ways. He wants them to repent, so they can receive forgiveness for their sins rather than experiencing devastating consequences of their disobedience and rebellion against God.

I’m struck by God’s persistence and zeal to get through to His rebellious and stubborn people. Even after King Jehoiakim so brazenly showed no fear as he burned the scroll containing the words of God in chapter 36, God instructs Jeremiah to make another scroll just like the one the king burned. God is determined to give his obstinate and stubbornly proud people another chance to hear His words. God has been making His appeal to His stubborn and rebellious people for many years already by this point in the book, but I see how God faithfully speaks to his wayward people through warnings, corrections, and harsh rebukes to the very end before the disaster that God predicted came true through the Babylonian invasion.

I personally experienced God faithfully reaching out to me with His words as He sent many different prophets throughout the years of my life. From those early days of Sunday school teachers to my leaders at Gracepoint, God has never ceased to be speak to me even in times when I was proud and stubborn about pursuing my sinful desires and being committed to self-affirming thoughts like, “I’m an OK guy. There’s nothing wrong with the way I am.” God persisted to get through to me by making numerous attempts to warn me, reason with me and to shake me with ego devastating truths about myself.

As it were in the times of the King Jehoiakim and Zedekiah, God’s faithfulness and zeal to bring sinners to repentance were through the sacrificial obedience of people like Jeremiah. Because Jeremiah was willing to be set apart for God and undergo being mistreated, imprisoned, beaten, falsely accused as a traitor, and dropped into a muddy cistern to starve to death, the word of God was able to reach people and turn the hearts of some like Ebed-Melech, who was saved from being killed by the Babylonians.

I, too, am called to be God’s prophet for people God brings me to. Thinking about the sort of example Jeremiah was as God’s prophet, I’m challenged to fight against the temptation to resign to people who seem initially unresponsive. Need to fight against wanting to save myself from disappointments, frustrations, and heartaches in trying to love others who may be bent on pursuing their sinful desires or too proud to admit their sins and repent. I know that God is challenging me to be a faithful prophet and shepherd to His church and the people He has entrusted to me by persisting in prayer and looking for opportunities to share God’s words with them–not just once, twice, but as many times as God provides me with each person.

Lessons for me …
King Zedekiah is an interesting person. On one hand he seems so stubborn and unwilling to hear from God through Jeremiah. In Jeremiah 37:2 it says, “Neither [King Zedekiah] nor his attendants nor the people of the land paid any attention to the words the Lord had spoken through Jeremiah the prophet”. But then in the following verse it says that he sent a messenger asking Jeremiah, “Please pray to the Lord our God for us.” Zedekiah allows Jeremiah to be imprisoned, but then he asks Jeremiah in private, “Is there any word from the Lord?” Zedekiah seems conflicted in his heart. On one hand he seems to know that Jeremiah is a real prophet of God, but he doesn’t want to really heed God’s warnings and obey what God wants him to do. Zedekiah seems to be full of fears about maintaining his kingship, so he gives into the demands of officials to get rid of Jeremiah who is causing their soldiers to become discouraged. He says to his officials, “The king can do nothing to oppose you.” In King Zedekiah’s final conversation with Jeremiah he shares vulnerably what fears haunt him (Jeremiah 38:17-19). He fears being mistreated by the Jews who defected to the Babylonians if he should surrender to the Babylonians like God is commanding him to do. Jeremiah assures him by saying, “They will not hand you over. Obey the Lord by doing what I tell you. Then it will go well with you, and your life will be spared.” King Zedekiah ultimately ends up being a tragic figure, because in the end he decides to cave into his fears and tries to escape rather than surrendering to the Babylonians like God told him to do. His disobedience results in his downfall and the destruction of his family and the rest of the Jews.

King Zedekiah’s life is a sober warning for me to consider if there are ways I’m trying to hear from God in a self-serving way. Being curious to know what God has to say, but not being willing to obey or just foolishly hoping that things will work out as I go on doing life the way I think is best for me. Am I hoping that God will change His mind and say things that would suit my selfish, sinful heart desires? I need to check my heart in approaching God’s words through daily devotions or hearing messages. I need to make sure that I’m listening to obey rather than trying to negotiate with God by delayed obedience or trying to see if God will eventually cater to my desires and fears.

I think another lesson to be learned is how my fears can cause me to have certain projections of the future that’s just not true or really insignificant in comparison to the bigger fear I ought to have about the consequences of living a life of disobedience to God. For King Zedekiah, he was focused on the possibility of being mistreated by Jews who defected and didn’t see that God’s wrath was upon him and his nation because of their sinful rebellion against God. If I don’t have proper fear of God, then like Zedekiah, I will be governed by fears and a projection of the future that will lead to making foolish, regrettable decisions. In my petty or even imagined fears about life I can become so stubbornly committed to doing life according to my own wisdom and perspective, and consequently stubbornly refuse to listen to God and obey Him. And like King Zedekiah, my foolish and self-serving approach to life will affect others around me. My disobedience to God can cause many others around me to suffer.

In Jeremiah 38:20, Jeremiah says to King Zedekiah, “Obey the Lord by doing what I tell you. Then it will go well with you….” God instructs me to obey Him in specific ways not only through my own reading of scripture, but also through spiritual leaders in my life who are like Jeremiah to me–people whom God appoints over me to guide, warn and instruct me to live a God honoring life. Ultimately God’s heart behind insisting that I obey Him is so that life will go well for me and to all those I affect. This is something I need to keep in mind as I strive to obey God even when obeying God becomes costly and difficult.

Submitted by Linda K. from Gracepoint Riverside
Key Verse
Jeremiah 38:15 “…Even if I did give you counsel, you would not listen to me.”

God is …
God’s heart for Jerusalem to turn from their sinful ways is described in Jeremiah 36:3, “Perhaps when the people of Judah hear about every disaster I plan to inflict on them, each of them will turn from his wicked way; then I will forgive their wickedness and their sin.” Throughout the text, I see God pleading with the Kings to obey His word, but they refuse. They couldn’t have imagined surrendering to Babylon, but little did they know that obeying God would have saved their lives and other people’s lives. From this I see that God is more concerned about our relationship with him than with what we may think is so important to us (i.e. pride, possessions, etc.). His persevering love to deliver the truth is shown through Jeremiah, and although he is put under watch in the palace court and put into a cistern, God protects him, with the hope so that people can turn to the truth and be saved and forgiven.

Lessons for me …
Through Jeremiah 36-40, I see the consequence of not obeying God’s warnings through the fall of Jerusalem. Though Jeremiah faithfully delivers God’s words of warning to the officials and kings to surrender to Babylon, they resist. When King Jehoiakim heard God’s words in the scroll he threw them into the fire until there was no more and wanted Jeremiah killed. Whereas King Zedekiah was willing to hear what Jeremiah has to say and protects Jeremiah, but he does nothing to act upon what he hears until it is too late and all of Jerusalem is taken over. The frightening thing is from the time King Zedekiah became king (Ch. 37) to Jerusalem’s fall, it had been the ninth year of his rule (Ch. 39), yet his view and stance towards what Jeremiah had been saying remains unchanged throughout that long period of time. What characterizes this complacent attitude is described when Jeremiah says to the King in Jeremiah 38:15, “…Even if I did give you counsel, you would not listen to me.” Whatever it was that prevented Zedekiah from responding to the truth, I see that we are no different from these kings in how we respond to truth.

The response of these kings tells me how proud and stubborn our hearts are. We may hear the word of God day in and day out through our daily devotions, bible study, prayer meetings, Sunday messages, yet it is very possible for us to have the same response as the kings, that instead of humbly receiving the truth, we can reject it, or act passively until it is too late. Some of the ways we can do this is when our heart is proud and we reject the truth or think it does not apply to us or when we think we can take care of some sin or heed some warning later. All of these responses are disastrous because the consequences of our sin will catch up to us and do more harm than we originally thought.

Through this text, I see that God’s word is always timely and I ought to always take seriously God’s warnings about my sins and it can manifest in my life so that I can be on guard and be quick to confess and repent. Though the truth is not always easy to receive, I need to always have the posture and humility as a sinner to accept that God is the one who sees and knows all things and to trust always in His righteous judgment. The failure of the Kings to take Jeremiah and God’s word seriously led to the downfall of a whole nation. Then for me the failure to take my sins like my pride, arrogance, envy, jealously, etc. seriously will led to the downfall of my relationships around me and with God. I have to see that God’s warnings are not just to tell me that I am wrong, but an act of love to save me and others from the consequences of my sins.

Prayer
Lord, thank you for helping me to see through this passage the consequences of not taking your word and truths seriously through the destruction of a whole nation by a two kings. I confess that I am no different from them, that I have a heart that is resistant to the truth especially when it deflates my pride and ego, but help me to see that your words are life saving. Forgive me, Lord, for my prideful heart that thinks I know what is best for myself, when in reality I do not know how widespread effect my sin can have on myself and others. Help me, Lord, to be come humble to your words of truth and to the ugly truths about myself so that I will be eager to hear from your words of truth and from the people who bring the truth to me. And help me to be like Jeremiah, to be someone who faithfully delivers your words of truth to those who may be resistant with the hope they will understand see your heart behind it all. Thank you for your persevering love that does not end until I respond to the truth. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

May 8 – Devotion Sharing (Jeremiah 31-35)

Submitted by Jenny C. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

Jeremiah 31:34 “No longer will a man teach his neighbor, or a man his brother, saying, ‘Know the Lord,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest,” declares the Lord. “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”

God is…

What stands out to me through today’s DT passages is God’s heart of mercy and compassion. Though God has brought the sword upon his people and he has exiled them from their homeland, he remembers the covenant and the promises he has made in the past. Jeremiah 31:3-4 says, “The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt, O Virgin Israel.” Though for the time being, God punishes his people justly for their stubbornness, their rejection of him, their idolatry, God does not forget the love that he has for them, a love that is everlasting – what he has proclaimed in the past is still true today. Because this is who God is, despite Israel’s unfaithfulness, their backsliding, their evil deeds, God vows to build his people up again.

Lessons for me…

I am reminded through this of how a covenantal relationship with God ultimately does not depend on my deeds, my performance, my merit, my circumstances, but solely on who God is as a God who loves and is merciful despite my sinfulness and failures, my unfaithfulness and my desires to follow the stubborn inclinations of my heart. As I pause to think about it, I am so much like this obstinate nation Israel–my track record of following God is stained with selfish gain, complacency, deceitfulness, desire to rule over my own life. If a life of following God depended on my ability to be righteous and my faithfulness, I would be disqualified.  I would still be out in the desert as an exile because again and again in my relationship with God I forget His place in my life and settle for lesser things. As Romans 9:16 says, “It does not, therefore, depend on man’s desire or effort, but on God’s mercy.” In Jeremiah 31:33-34, “This is the covenant I will make with the house of Israel after that time,” declares the Lord. “I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. No longer will a man teach his neighbor, or a man his brother, saying, ‘Know the Lord,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest,” declares the Lord. “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”

God himself will create a new covenant after his people have broken the old covenant. He longs to gather them back from the exiled places, to put his law in their minds and hearts, to be their God. And what is staggering is his promise to “forgive their wickedness and remember their sins no more.” After reading through the beginning chapters of Jeremiah and seeing how abhorrent Israel’s sins were, how anguished, offended, and hurt God was by their sins, these verses are astonishing to read. God, the rejected lover, the dishonored father, takes it upon Himself to rectify the wrong that his people have inflicted upon him. By all accounts, why should God put up with such sins? Why should He bother with people who keep on doing what they want and who hurt him so much? It is out of His everlasting love and his faithfulness to fulfill the gracious promise he made to the house of Israel and to the house of Judah (cf. Jer 33:14). He says in Jeremiah 33:14 that he “will make a righteous Branch sprout from David’s line.  In those days, Judah will be saved and Jerusalem will live in safety. This is the name by which it will be called: the LORD Our Righteousness.” This promise was fulfilled in Jesus, the righteous Branch who saves us from our sins, God’s own initiative to restore a fallen people to Himself. More deeply I see God’s scandalous love for me.  Though my sins cause him pain, He has made the first move to reconcile me to Him through Jesus. Through Jesus, I see the anguish and pain of sin upon God’s heart.  Through Jesus, He forgives my wickedness and remembers my sins no more – this is amazing news and it is cause for me to be humbled once again, to be in awe of His love and grace for me.

God uses the imagery of a Father disciplining his son.  Though he corrects and punishes his son for being like “an unruly calf” (cf. Jeremiah 31:18), He says, “Is not Ephraim my dear son, the child in whom I delight? Though I often speak against him, I still remember him. Therefore my heart yearns for him; I have great compassion for him,” declares the Lord” (Jeremiah 31:20). God’s love is not deterred by the son’s lack of honor and love for Him.  Though the Father often speaks against him, his thoughts are never far away from his son. I am reminded of Hebrews 12:6, 10-11, which says, “Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son…God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”  God pronounces his punishment to his people because of their wickedness, but ultimately he does so with a heart to bring them back and restore them. He longs to be their God, to bring health and healing to them, to cleanse them from all the sin they’ve committed against Him. In the same way, He is a God who longs to bring His holiness and His healing into my life, and this will involve correction, rebuke and discipline because I am a sinner who really does not know the right way to live before Him. Intrinsically, I do not like correction, I do not want to be disciplined, to go through hardships, and to have to struggle with my sins. Yet God’s reaction to all that is rotting and festering in my heart because of my sins, wrong values, distorted thoughts, is one of love – and it is because of His great love for me, His delight in me, His greater vision for me that he will discipline me. I think when ugly sins are exposed in my life, when I go through times of struggle, my inclination is to turn these into signs that I have personally failed God, that I am outside of His love and grace, that I am so far away from Him that I don’t know how to return to Him. God says as he has brought all this calamity on this people, so he will give them all the prosperity he has promised them (cf. Jer. 32:42). I can take heart that the correction I receive, the painful truth spoken to me are signs of His love for me.  Because of His covenantal love to me, He cannot stand to see me live for lesser things, He cannot leave me as I am when there are character and sin issues in my life. He wants for me to have singleness of heart and action, to fear Him for my own good; His desire is to shape and mold me into a people who will bring him renown, joy, and honor. Knowing this about God helps me to see discipline and hardship differently – they are things I desperately need as a sinner and they are signs that He loves me too much to allow me to continue down a broken path.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, I am reminded of Your heart of compassion and grace in my life. The only reason I am not exiled from You because of my sins is because You had the heart to bring me back from the faraway country, Your heart to cleanse and restore me. I see how incredible and scandalous is Your love for me and Your promise to forgive all my sins and remember my wickedness no more. Lord, I am in awe of Your compassion for me – I know that it is out of this same love that You correct and discipline me. God I confess that I am proud and I would like to think I no longer need correction or am over and done with certain sins or struggles; please humble me with Your goodness, to know that You are a Father who disciplines, but with the intention of purifying my heart and causing me to fear You for my own good. Thank You that You love me with such a fierce, everlasting and covenantal love.


Submitted by Jasper C. from Gracepoint Riverside

Key Verse 

Jeremiah 32:37-40

37 Behold, I will gather them from all the countries to which I drove them in my anger and my wrath and in great indignation. I will bring them back to this place, and I will make them dwell in safety. 38 And they shall be my people, and I will be their God. 39 I will give them one heart and one way, that they may fear me forever, for their own good and the good of their children after them. 40 I will make with them an everlasting covenant, that I will not turn away from doing good to them. And I will put the fear of me in their hearts, that they may not turn from me.

Jeremiah 32:42

“For thus says the Lord: Just as I have brought all this great disaster upon this people, so I will bring upon them all the good that I promise them.”

God is … 

God is justified in his anger, and he honors us by taking our sins seriously.  In the earlier parts of chapter 32, Jeremiah is recalling all these grievances that God has against his people, “you have brought your people Israel out of Egypt with signs and wonders…they entered and took possession of it. But they did not obey your voice or walk in your law. They did nothing you commanded them to do.” (32:21-23) Not only did they repeatedly refuse to live the way that God commanded them to live for their own good after bringing them out of slavery, they turned their hearts to idols and other gods, offering sacrifices to Baal that consisted even of giving their own children, which was so appalling to God that he says it did not even enter his mind that they would do that (32:35). After thinking and going through the history and faithfulness of God to his people through their tumultuous history, I realize more why God must be feeling so much anger and hurt over the kind of response that he gets from his people in turn – certainly it puts into perspective the kind of punishment that God is promising through Jeremiah, of destruction to Jersusalem and its people, that it’s not about this wrathful God losing his temper and lashing out in revenge against his people, but rather it shows that God’s judgment is a final resort after struggling generation after generation with a unrepentant, stubborn and offensive people. It’s less about God dishing out a harsh sentence, but more about God giving his people the dignity of being taken seriously, and in giving them clear punishment so that they will be forced to confront their sin.

Love always seeks to bring us back from repentance into renewed relationship with God.  However, even through the receiving of the punishment for their sins, there is a clear redeeming purpose that God intends for the people, it comes out in the next few verses.  Starting from 32:37, God paints this great vision for a restored people: “I will bring them back to this place, and I will make them dwell in safety. And they shall be my people, and I will be their God.”   This is God’s heart!  The punishment and destruction of Jerusalem isn’t the end of the story of God’s people, but it’s only the necessary step that needs to happen before the people can be restored.

Lessons for me …

What does this tell me about my struggles and the painful process of repenting for my sins? It tells me that I need not fear that if I struggle and confront ugly things about me that that will be the end of me, because God’s intention all along is restoration and bringing me back to the point of having a right relationship with him, to experience joys and good things – things that come from being free from enslavement to my own self-interest and image, to be able to have joy in loving other people and doing truly meaningful work that will make eternal impact. When I think of it, isn’t that what ministry is? Compared to wins and achievements that the world can offer, the impact of changing people’s lives will far outlive them all, because people are eternal whereas an innovation or an achievement is quickly overshadowed and forgotten by the next thing to come around. In 32:42, it states, “For thus says the Lord: Just as I have brought all this great disaster upon this people, so I will bring upon them all the good that I promise them.” When it comes to walking with God, I know that I do not have to fear permanent rejection knowing that God’s heart is one of love for me. It gives me confidence to be honest.

Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for being the kind of patient and loving God that you are, even in the times of discipline You demonstrate your heart and intention for restoring us to a way of life, that all along your heart is for us to experience a good a thriving life, free from the slavery of our sins. I thank you for the ways that I experience this in my own life, that broken path that I was on, even on to the cycle of failing and turning from you and needing to repent again and come back, through all of that you are patient to journey with me and that you don’t give up in this relationship. I pray that to the extent I come to understand this richness of my relationship with you, I will gladly obey you in loving other people through ministry and other avenues of my life, and that through that I would come to really share in your heart. Please continue to have mercy and patience with me as I struggle and grow, and I pray that I can become more effective in sharing love as my own testimony of your work in my life grows richer. In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

Submitted by Brian W. from Gracepoint Riverside Church

Key Verse

“This is the covenant I will make with the house of Israel
after that time,” declares the Lord.
“I will put my law in their minds
and write it on their hearts.
I will be their God,
and they will be my people.

Jeremiah 31:33

God is …

In the midst of disobedience, in the pause of the Babylonians closing in, there is a note of grace, a moment of hope and peace for Jeremiah and he looks past the bleakness of the current situation where he is experience deep anguish, persecution from his own people, and frustration after frustration.  God in the end, despite Israel being an obstinate people, promises this: “I will be the God of all the clans of Israel, and they will be my people,” at the end of the captivity.  And in the midst of what God says we catch a glimpse of why the exile is so important for the Israelite people at the time:

“They will come with weeping; they will pray as I bring them back.”  Jeremiah 31:9

“After I strayed, I repented; after I came to understand, I beat my breast.  I was ashamed and humiliated because I bore the disgrace of my youth.”  Jeremiah 31:19

“I will put the law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God,and they will be my people.” Jeremiah 31:33

God’s heart is a heart of repentance and return from the people.  In the chapters of Jeremiah, there’s a recognition that God is not about external actions, just wanting his people to get things done – make sacrifices, shout praises, give offerings.  God’s not looking for people to simply serve diligently in doing ministry, doing their devotions or serving God in various capacities.  God clearly wants people to actually be His people.  It’s so easy to fall into the mentality of taking for granted my identity as a Christian.  I know when I get into a “groove” when I’m feeling like things are going well at work, when things are falling into place in ministry, and I am desiring to stretch out – that’s when it’s the most dangerous to become like the pre-exile Israelites, wanting to keep their slaves, refusing to stand to their commitments.

Lessons for me …

But these chapter echo a reminder the flip-side of the picture as God speaks of the future and the renewal of the covenant to a humbler nation coming out of captivity.  And I think about when am I the closest to God – isn’t it when I recognize the brokenness of my life.  It’s the times that I strayed, when I remember the years when I lived life for myself, the old life of spending endless hours on the computer not caring about the people right in front me.  It’s remembering the days when I simply just wanted to give up on ministry because it was too hard; not recognizing how I just wanted an easy, comfortable, predictable life for myself.  It was not just knowing the kind of life I was going to live, but repenting and turning from those thoughts – to become God’s people wherever I was needed, and I think now, though I still have a lot to grow in, still to fight against the sins that still hold me in exile, my pride and competitiveness, but knowing that all this in the end – is so that God will be my God, and I will be his people.  And the comfort seeking person I used to be is such a far cry from what God has done for my life today: working with so many of the other committed team members here in Riverside, seeing lives changes before my eyes, people still as undergrads committing to doing ministry, actively outreaching to their non-Christian friends – we have become God’s people – and I could’ve never imagined as such.

But what got me and will continue to lead me thus far?  It’s actual understanding of my sin and real repentance – only when I come “weeping … pray [God will bring me back].”  If I continue to be as I am, will God work?… maybe, but how much powerfully can He work if His people are humble – if I stop my life trying to compare myself to how other people are doing in ministry, or even terms of worldly or social success.  There are times when I look out and the siege ramps are starting to build to take up the city.  But unless I am self-aware and admit to my weaknesses through my stage of life and stop acting smug and self-sufficient and deluded like Zedekiah, can I be prepared for the sieges that come in life: difficulties in ministering to a broken world and rebellious hearts, the siege of the lies of the world wanting to compromise and settle so I can find a more predictable life making concessions just for the sake of marriage or better job prospects, loosening in my commitments finding space for myself – Babylon will come at some time or another, and will my compromises leave my land as a desolate waste?

At the end of the day, what is more powerful than staying faithful is being reminded of God’s faithfulness: “I will make a righteous Branch sprout from David’s line he will do what is jus and right in the land.” At the end of the day in the midst of all the grime, messiness, and sin is the promise of a Savior, in whose promise I can actually be able to say “The Lord Our Righteousness.”  Because in the end, the only thing that can stop my vicious cycle of going back to the prideful life that I try to live, trying to out do other in position and career – if my life then becomes the church, it would simply translate into outdoing people in ministry and regard in the church: faithfulness for simply that sake would only lead to pride.  But because I know that I live only because I have a Savior, I know that I’m not living off my sheer effort but being reminded of these verses that once again – I know my cruel and default estate, that the only to be free from that is to live humbly knowing that my righteousness, true righteousness only comes through God and His promise and sacrifice – that nothing I can do I can rest my pride and laurels in.

Prayer 

God, in the midst of the warning, please do not let me fall into self-satisfaction of how I am serving or what I am doing – but continue to keep me humble: help me recognize in all the ways that I still need to grow, that I still need to learn: that the most tragic place I can be is someone who is arrogant and self-sufficient losing the need to be humble.  As you’ve put so many watchmen in my midst, my leaders, the older staff, peers and even the younger ones – that I would take strong warning from Jeremiah’s words.  Pray that I will also find the base of my hope in humble recognition of my human sinfulness, that this would be my foundation of my relationship with You, remembering Israel was closest to You in their weakness, in their need for God rather than in their own strength.  And as I continue on, now the third year here in Riverside – to never lose sight and awe of all that You have already done –

Keep me humble and repentant – in Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Background on Jeremiah

Background of Jeremiah: (compiled notes from the NIV Study Bible Notes & Life Application Bible Notes)

The book preserves an account of the prophetic ministry of Jeremiah, whose personal life and struggles are known to us in greater depth and detail than those of any other OT prophet.  His ministry was primarily in Jerusalem and spanned the years from 626 B.C.  to sometime after 586 B.C.  Jeremiah was commanded by God not to marry and raise children because the impending divine judgment on Judah would sweep away the next generation (16:1-4).  Jeremiah began prophesying in Judah halfway through the reign of Josiah (640-609 B.C.) and continued throughout the reigns of Jehoahaz (609), Jehoiakim (609-598), Jehoiachin (598-597) and Zedekiah (597-586).  It was a period of time when the doom of entire nations – including Judah itself – was being sealed.  The power centers of imperial giants of Egypt, Assyria and Babylon were shifting, causing upheavals in the smaller nation states in the area.

During that tumultuous time, King Josiah of Judah was killed near Megiddo in 609 at the hands of the Egyptian Pharaoh Neco II (2 Ch 35:20-24), and Jeremiah, who had found a kindred spirit in the godly Josiah lamented his death (2 Ch 35:25).  Josiah’s son Jehoahaz (also known as Shallum), ruled for just 3 months before Neco (the Egyptian Pharaoh) put him in chains and made Eliakim, another of Josiah’s sons, king and renamed him Jehoiakim.  This change of kings marked a significant turning point in the court’s attitude toward Jeremiah, as Jehoiakim was relentlessly hostile toward Jeremiah.  From that point on, Jeremiah would be persecuted and imprisoned, enjoying only brief moments of freedom.

Around this time, in 605 B.C., the Egyptians were crushed at Carchemish on the Euphrates by Nebuchadnezzar (46:2), the newly appointed ruler of Babylon.  Then Nebuchadnezzar besieged Jerusalem in 605 B.C., humiliating Jehoiakim (Da 1:1-2) and carrying off the first set of Israelites into exile.  This is when Daniel and his three friends were taken (Da 1:3-6).  Later, in 598-597, Nebuchadnezzar attacked Jerusalem again and eliminated Jehoiakim.  Jehoiakim’s  son Jehoiachin ruled Judah for only 3 months (2 Ch 36:9).  Jeremiah foretold that Jehoiachin and his followers would be captured (22:24-30), a prediction that was later fulfilled (24:1; 29:1-2).  Then Mattaniah, Jehoiachin’s uncle and a son of Josiah, was renamed Zedekiah and placed on Judah’s throne by Nebuchadnezzar in 597 B.C. (37:1; 2 Ch 35:11-14).  Zedekiah was a weak and vacillating ruler who sometimes befriended Jeremiah and sought his advice but at other times was unwilling to protect Jeremiah and allowed the prophet’s enemies to mistreat and imprison him.  Near the end of Zedekiah’s reign, Jeremiah entered into an agreement with him to reveal God’s will to him in exchange for his own personal safety (38:15-27).  But the “protection” provided by Zedekiah was virtually a house arrest, which lasted until Jerusalem was completely captured by Babylon in 586 B.C. (38:28).  At the final destruction of Jerusalem by the Babylonians, Nebuchadnezzar executed Zedekiah’s sons in front of him and then blinded him (39:1-7).

Overall structure: chapter 1 is Jeremiah’s call to be a prophet.  Then chapters 2 through 39 are prophecies about Israel and Judah.  The basic theme of his message was: “Repent and return to God, or His judgment will come.”  But then, because the people rejected this warning, Jeremiah moved to predicting specifically the destruction of Jerusalem (which was fulfilled in 586 B.C., described by chapter 39).  Chapters 40-45 describe events following Jerusalem’s fall, and the book concludes with prophecies concerning a variety of nations (chapters 46-52).